Thursday, July 31, 2014

Death is more than catching butterflies

Crystal Visions Tarot, Death, Jennifer Galasso
For today I've drawn Death from the Crystal Visions Tarot. I like this version of Death a lot. It has dark and light in it and depicts sadness and hope. Recently I've read a really great post about Death by Olivia from First Earth Tarot.
She emphasizes the necessity to see Death as so much more than a card for new beginnings. Of course we all agree that if you want to give way for change often some things have to end first. But ending parts of your life which have been dear to you for perhaps many years is raw and painful and there is sadness, fear, grief and not knowing what to do or where to go next.
The body of the woman is merging into stone while the butterflies, a symbol of transformation, fly away. There is even moss growing on her leg so she must have been there for a long time, The Angel of Death is standing beside her, following the process. Because that is, in my opinion, the most important aspect of the Death card: going through the process. The death card is more about the work than about the reward afterwards.
I have had a lot of “Death” experiences in my life and only afterwards I was grateful for every one of them, but during these periods of intense pain and sadness I didn't find a single butterfly.
What a caterpillar calls the end of the world, the master calls a butterfly” R. Bach
(The text on the stone says: Life is changed not taken away)

Wednesday, July 30, 2014

Seven of Wands - Boundaries

Goddess Tarot, Seven of wands, Kris Waldherr
After our family weekend, the Seven of Wands is coming up repeatedly for me. Today it is the version from the Goddess Tarot by Kris Waldherr. When I look at the picture I instantly feel like I have to brace myself for something. This card is all about being faithful to my own convictions and to stand up for my beliefs. I am the only one who knows deep down what is good for me and I will stay strong and chose my battles wisely.  I am not going to start any argument but I will not give in to manipulative behavior either. It is obvious this is a solitary act of bravery against six other wands but I am rather with myself  than with people who don’t really see me for who I am.
So this card is all about creating boundaries for my emotional balance and as a way to keep “the peace”

When I am writing this the Goddess Durga comes to mind. I haven’t given her much thought lately. Maybe it is a good idea to reconnect with her energy by chanting to her during my meditation and/or to meditate with her seed mantra: Dum
"Daring to set boundaries is about having the courage to love ourselves, even when we risk disappointing others".Brene Brown

Monday, July 28, 2014

New moon in July - Release

Conscious Spirit Oracle Kim Dreyer ReleaseA little bit late, but this is my card for the new and waxing moon of this lunation. This is my Embrace card and it is a bit funny because the card is called “Release”. So I have to embrace a releasing energy which is very apt for me now. This weekend I've had to deal with some family problems which are beyond my power to change and so I've decided to try to let go. And then I drew this card from the Conscious Spirit Oracle by Kim Dreyer:
I release that which does not serve me with gratitude and love
Of course I was pleasantly surprised by this synchronicity but I also noticed the last two words: “with gratitude and love”. Releasing, letting go is one of the hardest things for me to master, because it means also to let go of control, to accept how things are. Mostly my releasing is combined with resentment, failure, anger and sadness. It leaves me with scars and holes, which then have to be healed over the years. How different would it be if I would try to release with gratitude and love. Softly, silently saying my farewells  and sending light and love with them. It couldn't be better depicted then this: an angel, light as a cloud,  moving on and leaving light behind…..

Thursday, July 24, 2014

Going to visit my mother!

This will be my last post until next Monday or Tuesday because tomorrow I am going to visit my mother to celebrate her 80th birthday. My youngest brother is going to pick me up and together we will go to her. It will take us about one hour and a half. My eldest brother is coming by train and it will be good to meet each other again. I have to be  mindful to focus on the positive because as you all will know family visits can bring out the worst in you J. My brothers are both more inclined to “behave” than I do.
To give me a head start, I pulled three lennies to answer the following question: How can I contribute to this get-together in the best possible way for the good of all of us?
Moon + woman + garden
Enchanted Lenormand, Moon, Woman, Garden
  1. Intuition will guide me through this visit
  2. Emotional satisfaction for my mother during our stay is very important. ( it is not so often the three of us are there together and it is her birthday)
  3. During our stay we will be sensitive for my mother needs
  4. I will keep my emotional tides within while I am there ( keep my big mouth shut when necessary
When I count the inserts I get Stork: besides change, according to Caitlin Matthews this can also mean an annual celebration, (Moms Birthday), travel which is also obvious and nesting. I guess my mom will feel a bit like that when we all come home together.
Al together this is some good advice for me to make our stay a pleasant one for all of us; especially for my mom who I love so dearly
I see you in few days. Have a nice weekend!!

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

My Thrift Store Haul

For today no daily draw. Yesterday I've been with M to  her new dentist and unlike previous experiences this time everything went so smoothly. She was very happy and she suggested to celebrate  this with a visit to a very  large thrift store in the same neighborhood. We both enjoy to snoop there.
We had a great time and got some amazing finds. Somehow a lot of my purchases are mainly spiritual items from different spiritual traditions: 

I have found a dark wooden standing crucifix and a wooden painted Madonna and Child. Together they are for me a representation of my most earliest belief system which I still hold dear to my heart.
Also I've found a little terracotta statue of Ganesha and a small elephant to go with it. He is for me the Kind Remover of my blockages. Then a dark wooden statue of a female mermaid (in my opinion Yemaya) with big breasts and a bowl filled with seafood in her hands, caught my attention and I couldn't leave her behind.  After that I thought I saw a small statue of an otter which reminded me of the Page of Cups from the Wildwood Tarot. Only when I came home S mentioned it was a seal (oops) but M suggested it could also be a selkie friend for my mermaid sea goddess.  The  Brigid’s Cross (made in Ireland) appealed to me very much. We already have a Brigid’s cross, I've made of wheat hanging, in our hallway and now I can have this one for in my bedroom
Also I've found a gnome with a mushroom head and some acorns in his hands to put up when autumn comes, and two little wooden boxes. One has the shape of an apple which reminded me of our apple tree and last but not least a lovely wooden tray and a tawny altar cloth (also for the Fall)

Immediately after we came home I've grabbed the beeswax and started polishing my wooden finds. Now they shine and smell great! What a perfect afternoon it was! 

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

King of Cups – Seek some guidance

After too many good intentions and new ideas to better my life: to be more positive, meditate more regularly, write my morning pages every morning, rise earlier, eat healthier, exercise more etc, it is no wonder the King of Cups from the Original Rider Waite tarot  has come along to help me to get real with this eagerness to improve my life on every level at the same time. I do have a bit of an all of nothing mindset J.  He is the one who keeps his feet on the pedestal of his throne. Unlike his Queen he doesn't like his feet to get wet. He doesn't look at his cup either. To me these are all signs of emotional detachment in order to make the right decisions and to give a sound advice. He is the calm mentor, a loving (grand)father, an example of emotional stability.
 When I tell him my concerns, he smiles, nods and empathizes with me. He tells me to take it slowly, one step at the time. Rome wasn't built in a day and neither will all these good intentions transform into solid habits overnight. Be gentle with yourself and when you “fail” you can try again tomorrow. There will always be another day….And I know he is right (as always)

“I am the grandfather at the end of the long journey of life. I have done it all, I have seen it all. I have turned within, and have found great solace there. I have gained much experience, and now people come to me when they need my wisdom. I do not lose myself in ideals of perfection, for I understand that everything is perfect, even in its weakness. My place is not to judge, but to help. I bring peace and serenity. I offer healing for old wounds. I am supremely patient and when you fall, I am unconditionally compassionate. I am secure in my wisdom and strength. I have earned my way to this state of being.” Leila Vey