Today is a
bit of a Blah day. I don’t have much energy to do the things I wanted to do. And those were fun things and
not something like household chores. I even went to the gym to turn this downhearted
feeling around. I did enjoy it but it did not have the result
I aimed for so I decided to dedicate my daily draw to this dull and dreary Saturday.
My rune Kenaz
told me there was something I needed to pay attention to, since this is the
rune of fire, knowledge and clarity. From
Soulcards 2 I pulled a skeleton with an aura of yellow and red. It almost seemed
like this skeleton was screaming in my head: “Don’t you see, I am bone tired!” and I said: “You
certainly don’t look that way, because you put a façade of knowing it all and
being able to cope with everything which
comes your way!
Oops, that’s
me all over. This perfectly ties back to my New Moon reading of September 1 and
my ongoing quest to feel good. Today I realize (again) that I don’t have to be creatively and
intellectually active all the time. So what to do about it? And I pulled the Hermit from the Wild Unknown
Tarot. Ah, It is permitted by the cards to be tired and to take some essential me
time, so I don’t have to do anything but
everything is permitted. I do hope that next time I feel like this, I don’t
need The Hermit to tell it is okay to be
tired
N.B. Look
how the flame is now protected in the lamp. It still shines brightly but It can’t
be put out very easily anymore. This is
a much more energy-efficient way to illuminate yourself and everyone around you.
Our posts are on opposite ends of the spectrum today! :) But I can relate to this; I think it is part of being trained as a mom - you just keep going until you keel over with a smile plastered on your face. Glad you got the message before getting hit with complete exhaustion!
ReplyDeleteOr an explosion of build up frustration and boredom ???? Or maybe a bit of both. Let's be gentle with myself :D
DeleteAs women we sure as a shit don't have to be all things to all people, not even to ourselves and we can't always be 'on', there will always be off days when we might feel board and frustrated etc. I mean we need to come first, not every one else. And we shouldn't have to fight to maintain ourselves.
ReplyDeleteYou're right Ellen be gentle with yourself!
Thank you for you encouraging comment Catherine. I thought taking care of myself was something I had learned by now, but it still doesn't come naturally :)
DeleteI don't like having those 'blah' days but I guess not everyday can be rainbows, unicorns, and bunny rabbits. (don't know where that comparison came from). I guess we all need the Hermits wisdom and realize those days helps us appreciate those sunny days we wish would never end. I hope your blah day has passed and this new day is filled with rays of joy.
ReplyDeleteI'm sure nobody does :) This feeling seems to stretch out a bit but I do feel better now I've admitted it to myself. Getting some meat back on those bones is an ongoing challenge for me
DeleteLol to the energy-efficiency title! I've been Hermiting for a while, but not yet had the me-time. Hope you enjoy yours, dear friend!
ReplyDeleteHugs,
Chloë
I do enjoy it but not in the usual painting, reading and writing way. It is more about letting myself be who I am right now. (which is really hard)
DeleteIt doesn't feel natural because we've had 5,000 years of conditioning as women to be "taking care' of others, and disregarding our own wants and needs. Long over due for serious change and to keep our inner fire lite, to reclaim that word "no", to be self-protective, to listen to our own authentic voice, and silence that inner tyrant. We aren't all things, but we are certainly more than enough, and well worth caring for and about.
ReplyDeleteAmen to that!!!
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