This Four of Cups from the Anna K tarot couldn't be more fitting for me and is so right on time to be my wake-up call. I've told you before I was feeling a bit under the weather lately and I have to admit I have ordered a few decks to feel better. Although I am super glad with those decks, I know I wasn't ready to explore new decks since I've got my birthday presents in may. But one way or the other they just kept being delivered by the postman. He is such a great guy! J
Anyway I feel a bit like this man in the picture. He’s got all these delicious dishes handed to him by his loving daughters and he doesn't seem to appreciate the taste or the effort at all. He is just sitting there wanting something better or different.
Emotional shopping or eating or whatever takes your mind of the hurt or the sadness is never fulfilling. The hole is just as deep when the first rush of excitement about a new purchase or chocolate bar with hazelnuts has faded.
So what does this all practically means to me?
- I am going to put a stop to my splurging on decks until September the 21
- I will keep meditating to be more connected with The Divine and myself
- I will play with the decks I have and try to enjoy them and connect with them on a deeper level (diviner)
- I will pick up my gratitude practice in order to be more aware of the abundance in my life
- I will try to take better care of myself; to be more attentive to my actual needs instead of burying them under heaps of stuff and cookies
- I am not going to beat myself up if one of the resolutions above don’t work out (Broom )
When I took the cards out of the box two of them fell out : the Broom ( something is swept away, cleansed or some kind of punishment or quarrel ) and the Diviner ( well guess who that is with all her cards). It seems I have to clean and organize my drawer and take stock of what I have and be happy with it. Then I want to sweep out this negative behavior of numbing my feelings.
“Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life. It turns what we have into enough, and more. It turns denial into acceptance, chaos to order, confusion to clarity. It can turn a meal into a feast, a house into a home, a stranger into a friend.” Melody Beattie