This Four of Cups from the Anna K tarot
couldn't be more fitting for me and is so right on time to be my wake-up call. I've told you before I was feeling a bit
under the weather lately and I have to
admit I have ordered a few decks to feel better. Although I am super glad with
those decks, I know I wasn't ready to explore new decks since I've got my birthday
presents in may. But one way or the other they just kept being delivered by the
postman. He is such a great guy! J
Anyway I
feel a bit like this man in the picture. He’s got all these delicious dishes
handed to him by his loving daughters and he doesn't seem to appreciate the
taste or the effort at all. He is just sitting there wanting something better or different.
Emotional
shopping or eating or whatever takes your mind of the hurt or the sadness is
never fulfilling. The hole is just as deep when the first rush of excitement
about a new purchase or chocolate bar with hazelnuts has faded.
So what
does this all practically means to me?
- I am going to put a stop to my splurging on decks until September the 21
- I will keep meditating to be more connected with The Divine and myself
- I will play with the decks I have and try to enjoy them and connect with them on a deeper level (diviner)
- I will pick up my gratitude practice in order to be more aware of the abundance in my life
- I will try to take better care of myself; to be more attentive to my actual needs instead of burying them under heaps of stuff and cookies
- I am not going to beat myself up if one of the resolutions above don’t work out (Broom )
The last deck which has arrived was the
Enchanted Lenormand.
When I took the cards out of the box two of them fell out
: the Broom ( something is swept away, cleansed or some kind of punishment or quarrel ) and the Diviner ( well guess who that is with all her cards). It
seems I have to clean and organize my drawer and take stock of what I have and
be happy with it. Then I want to sweep out
this negative behavior of numbing my feelings.
“Gratitude
unlocks the fullness of life. It turns what we have into enough, and more. It
turns denial into acceptance, chaos to order, confusion to clarity. It can turn
a meal into a feast, a house into a home, a stranger into a friend.” Melody
Beattie
I can SO relate to this post. In fact, I have two new tarot decks that just came in the mail myself, not to reward myself but to try to make myself "feel better." (Victorian Fairy and Hidden Realms) I do think it is a spiritual medicine I need for my problem, not a physical one, so I am glad you posted your list of practical ways to deal with the emotional hole (I especially like the last one). Hugs to you my friend!
ReplyDeleteIt seems we are encouraging each other today my friend. I am glad this post resonated with you and I could be of help. The Hidden Realm is a beautiful deck and it could provide you with spiritual medicine after all.:)
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I also can relate to this post and had to smile after reading it. Had a bit of an emotional few hours yesterday and immediately went on-line to find some decks to buy. Almost did. But was able to stop myself before hitting the "buy now". I went and meditated instead. Like you, I already had more than enough decks to explore ... for now. Have a lovely day, Ellen xxxooo
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing this Carol. How mindful of you to stop and meditate instead.
DeleteIt is good to know I am not the only one who is tempted by buying more decks.:)
A lovely day to you too!
I think these are things many of us struggle with. I know that I have in the past - especially the buying splurge, even though you could replace that with cigarettes or alcohol or big nights out when the chips are down.
ReplyDeleteMaybe find a way to use what you have differently. I always loved your picture of Strength from the Hidden Realms. Maybe create an artistic review, where you use a particular deck to inspire art - make something based around it or inspired by it.
Glad I can finally post here. Was having trouble this morning. Apologies for the test-post!
Good to have you back. Cigarettes... It's been more than a year now. I had almost forgotten I've ever smoked
DeleteYes there are so many ways to work with the cards. I might pick up drawing them again. Thanks for the suggestion Steve :)
Definitely something I struggle with, too. I have several decks I haven't even opened yet, never mind read with. And oh, the call of chocolate! As others have said, that's a wonderful, practical list of ways to combat this spiritual malaise :)
ReplyDeleteHi Kerry
DeleteYes the list is great but putting it into practice might be a greater challenge than writing it down :)
Although it helps a lot when you know you're not alone in this.:)
(((HUGS))) go out to you all! My recent buying splurge came in the form of books, more numerology. Like I need yet another distraction from my fiction writing. Well, I felt better after hitting buy, and then got to be excited when they arrived at my home. This can be a dangerous cycle though. I think next time I better go with meditation. :) Best wishes to all.
ReplyDeleteHi (((Cher)))
DeleteYes it is a tricky cycle. I am so happy with everything I buy but it is like a high that fades away. Meditation can bring you in the now and stop the wanting and desiring for more stuff.
I hope this practice can bring you back to your writing too. :)
Hugs