Wednesday, August 16, 2017

Daughter of Air – fly boldly, fly freely

Today’s Card is Daughter of Air from the Vision Quest Tarot. In her hand, she is holding a feather. This feather is linking to her inner free flying eagle, who rises above her daily sometimes trivial problems to get a better view of the big picture and who will guide her into the right direction.

This card is all about self-liberation. To get out of our rut and turn into the freedom loving human being we are supposed to be. Staying where we are may seem the most secure and comforting thing to do but when we remind ourselves of our inner strength and innate power it isn’t strange we long for more. Remember we aren’t newly hatched chicks anymore;  we are full grown eagles ready to be bold and soar. 

"There is an eagle in me that wants to soar, and there is a hippopotamus in me that wants to wallow in the mud. Carl Sandburg

Monday, August 14, 2017

Mother of Earth – It is okay to be proud of ourselves

Today’s card is Mother of Earth from the Vision Quest Tarot. She is all about nurturing ourselves as well as others, about connecting with our body and with nature.  Mother of Earth implies that whatever we do for ourselves we also do for others since everything is connected and we are all one. So practising self-care and self-love is by no means an act of self-centeredness.
Today my focus is the child on her lap. It feels like she wants to tell her mother all the things she has already accomplished. Yes, she knows she has still a lot to learn and to practice but that doesn’t mean she can’t  be proud of her achievements so far.
We tend to focus mostly on the what we still need to improve and on how to better ourselves but it can be quite inspiring to give ourselves a pat on the back once in a while just because we deserve it.
Today I am proud of baking our daily bread, choosing organic alternatives for my groceries  if I can afford them, taking a walk, pumpkins in our garden and meditating before breakfast

What would you like to share with Mother of Earth today?

Saturday, August 12, 2017

Queen of Clouds - Caged by Morality

Osho Zen Tarot. Queen of Clouds Swords Knight of Water Cups

Today’s card is the Queen of Clouds - Morality from the Osho Zen Tarot. Although the Queen of Swords is the queen I identify the most with, I sincerely hope this queen is nothing like me. Most likely she is a shadow aspect of me since I was raised, like many of my age, with lots of “do’s and don’t’s” and “should’s and shouldn’t’s”. I was supposed to know what was expected of me and if I failed to live up to these expectations, I knew I had disappointed my parents, which would hurt just as much as being sent to my room. Because of the fear of making a mistake, I build a protective cage of false security around myself and lived my life as obedient as I could. Within that cage, judgments about others grew rampantly and left me isolated within myself. Luckily cages can be broken or torn down, often by major life changing events and many years ago I experienced the freedom of The Knight of Water (jumper card). The world was so much bigger and more diverse than I ever could have imagined.
To mature from black and white morality to a multitude of colorful ideas and options about life demands a large recalibration of the mind and even sometimes a hard restart. Yes, it hurt but it was so worth the darkness, the pain and the tears. 
Spreading your wings for the first is scary but when the inner fluttering becomes too strong you finally understand your cage is not your home anymore.

Wednesday, August 9, 2017

Eight of Wands - Keep your calm in a chaotic world

Today’s card is the Eight of Wands from the Llewellyn tarot. We see the familiar eight Wands in the air, although today it doesn’t feel like they are all going in the same direction. Some seem to go upwards and some seem to fall from the sky. What also stands out is the calmness of the grazing deer. Some are eating and some are watchful but they are all convinced there is no need to fight or run to a safer place.
Often when a lot of Wands are flying over our head we tend to jump up, decide, act, again and again until each Wand is taken care of. We don’t like to allow those Wands to pass freely without our interference and to watch how life unfolds. To be able to do this demands a great amount of trust and confidence in our inner strength and in our resilience when something isn’t going as we hoped it would.
There is a lot happening in my life but I have to take a step back from most things, instead of jumping in, to “help” and  “fix it all. This card teaches me perfectly how to live in a chaotic world.
Time for lunch J

"Never be in a hurry; do everything quietly and in a calm spirit. Do not lose your inner peace for anything whatsoever, even if your whole world seems upset." Saint Francis de Sales

Monday, August 7, 2017

The Sun - Be your own hero

Llewellyn Tarot The SunToday, on a warm August morning I drew The Sun from the Llewellyn Tarot. This card depicts the Sun God Llew, riding on his horse while feeling victorious after slaying his enemy.
So, I was wondering how the optimistic, youthful, and confident energy of this card could help slay my current, most vicious enemy: my anxiety and need to control every situation.
The light and warmth of The Sun will uncover and burn away the anxious feelings and the hurt this enemy is causing me. This does sound a bit like slaying my own dragon because both the characters of this story are parts of myself: my energetic confident ego as well as my slimy and deceitful anxiety.
So what weapons can I use again this ongoing thread? Together, Happiness and Joy will make a strong shield.  Being in the moment with a childlike innocence is the perfect attitude which will keep the darkness at bay. And whenever it does slip through my defences, I can throw an arrow dipped in a potion of trust, faith and self-confidence.

It is so self assuring to be able to be the hero of my own story instead of waiting for my knight in shining armor to come and rescue me.

Saturday, August 5, 2017

Nine of Swords – Tired of worrying

Today’s card is the Nine of Swords from the Llewellyn Tarot. It is the card of worries and depression, of anxiety and insecurity.  
Llewellyn Tarot Nine of Swords The Star
Each of us has issues and situations in their life to worry about and to keep us up at night. But we are also aware that often life is never as scary as we imagine it to be. At night, when we lay down our heads on our pillow and in the morning just after we have woken up, our thoughts seem to have a life of their own and are likely to spiral down if you have an anxious mind. I can assure you I have been presented with the most horrible outcomes of various situations during these hours. So what to do about it and I pulled The Star, a card of Trust and Hope, which is the exact opposite of fear and worrying. This card represents the story of Branwen, a British princess who was married to an Irish King. The little Starling in the picture was her only friend in an abusive marriage to this king. Here you see how it flies with a message for help over the border to her brother Bran.
For me this card tells us is to never lose hope and to trust all shall be well in the end. Another thing which these two cards convey today is to get out of bed and to go outside. Or at the least get your body moving and try to do something to distract your mind from worrying. (Like writing  a blog post J)
Yes, I have been worrying too much over minor issues lately. So I wasn’t  surprised at all when these two cards came up. I have been reducing my anxiety/sleeping meds for almost a month now and so far so good but I feel I have to take it very slowly in order for it to succeed.

Worry never robs tomorrow of its sorrow, it only saps today of its joy. (Leo Buscaglia)

Thursday, August 3, 2017

Page of wands - Get off the beaten path

Llewellyn Tarot Page of Wands
Today’s card is the Page of Wands from the Llewellyn Tarot. This is a card filled with enthusiasm and a zest for life. This Page is playful and he always feels the need to try new things and broaden his horizon.
When I saw this card my first thoughts were: “Well, it is clear this isn’t me today.” Lately, my energy level is quite low and I feel absolutely uninspired to do the things I usually love to do. While writing this I realize this is exactly the message I need to hear: get off the beaten path and do something out of the ordinary:  Wear something colorful instead of always black, draw with crayons instead of watercolors, read fairy tales, anything as long as it is different from what you normally do.

For a habitual person like me, this could become quite an adventure but I believe if the little rabbit is up to it so am I. I think my inner child, whom I have promised some extra attention this month, will be quite excited about this.

Tuesday, August 1, 2017

Nine of Pentacles – Happy Lughnasadh /Lammas

Llewellyn Tarot Nine of Pentacles
Yesterday I have received the Llewellyn Tarot in the mail. It was a belated birthday present from M. This deck has been on and off my wish list for such a long time because I wasn’t sure if I needed yet another Rider Waite Smith based deck in my collection. It was the artwork that convinced me that I indeed wanted this deck. When I flipped through the cards for the first time I was amazed by the rich palette the artist has used. As always in real life, the colors are so much more vibrant than in the online pictures. Because it is Rider Waite based, the deck is easy to read but has also more than enough new symbolism and layers to stir my curiosity and to let me dive deep into this deck and the beautiful guidebook filled with Welsh history and myths.
Today it is Lammas or Lughnasadh, the festival which marks the beginning of the harvest season with the first wheat harvest. For this day I picked the Nine of Pentacles. Not only because it is one of my favorite minors but more so because it illustrates beautifully how the time of reaping what we have sown has begun. The lady in the card is fortunate: she has worked hard all Summer and her harvest is abundant. The first wheat has been bound into a sheaf and I am positive that a lot more will follow.

I am planning to bake a loaf of bread today and fill my heart with things I am grateful for. All the things  I have sown myself but perhaps even more important: everything which  I have received as a gift from others.

Monday, July 31, 2017

In the world, not of this world

Sacred Rebels Oracle In the world, not of the worldAfter my last post I have been thinking a lot about how to stay true to myself and today I wanted to ask this question to one of my decks. The sacred Rebels Oracle seemed to be a perfect fit for this question and it replied to me with: In the world, not of the world.
We see a woman with a shoal of fish. She jumps out of the water, clad in nothing but the locks of her hair. Although she used to be perfectly happy to be one of the shoal, lately it seems she has outgrown the mentality of the shoal and has started to make up her own mind about things. She knows this will make her extremely vulnerable so for now, although she is perfectly aware of her peculiarities and unique points a view, she still remains a part of the shoal. Perhaps for safety, community or just the need to belong to something more than herself.
This in between phase demands a lot of  courage and trust, in order to find a balance between being true to yourself and being part of this world; a constant weighing and questioning of when to swim with the shoal and when to jump out of the water,

As always balance is everything

Saturday, July 29, 2017

Seven of Wands - True Colors

Joie de Vivre Tarot Seven of Wands
Today’s card is the Seven of Wands from the Joie de Vivre Tarot. This card is about courage, persistence and standing up for yourself. Instead of the defensive character of the Rider Waite version of this card, here we see the aftermath of the battle. Beam, beaming with confidence and joy, has stood up for his beliefs and dreams and has shown the townsfolk, who want everyone to be like them, that it is okay and quit rewarding to be who you truly are. To show your creative nature, your own uniqueness; your true colors. He has taken off his greyish coat and is brave enough to show the colorful outfit he is wearing underneath. Even though it was a bit scary at first, he is so happy he has come this far.    
I wonder what he will do next. Will he come down to live among the townsfolk again; Inspiring them to live a more authentic life or will he turn around and search for his own tribe?

"I see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful
Like a rainbow"
(Cyndi Lauper)
 

Thursday, July 27, 2017

Three Card Spread with the Tarot of The Hidden Realm

For today I will do a three card daily spread with The tarot of the Hidden Realm. The positions are as follows:
1 The general energy of the day
2 The challenge of the day
3 The gift of today

Tarot of the Hidden Realm Two of Wands The Emperor Temperance

The cards I drew were:
1 The general energy of the day – Two of Wands
Two playful fairies are flying between the leafs and the blossom of a Rowan tree. They are young and their lives are filled with endless possibilities. While playing and experimenting they will learn what it is they truly want out of life and then they have two options: To keep fluttering from one tree to another or follow their passion, their hearts desire.
2 The challenge of the day – The Emperor
The next step is to bring structure into the mix and to form a plan. However, the challenge here is not to become too rigid, write endless to-do lists and squeeze every drop of the fun out of it. Instead, we might try turn to our inner adult for some fatherly advice.
3 The gift of today – Temperance
Yes, balance is all! The gift is a perfect mix between structure and play, between following  a plan and being flexible enough to adjust it and make room for trial and error

I am very pleased to see how these three cards have worked together to affirm my New Moon draw of the Six of Cups (inner child work). These cards highlight the need for play as well as for an adult approach to it.  

Wednesday, July 26, 2017

Lakshmi – All shall be well

Goddes Guidance oracle Lakshmi
Today I felt really drawn to pull a card from my first oracle deck ever, the Goddess Guidance Oracle Cards, which has been a birthday gift from my daughter M. Those first decks which have brought me so much pleasure and deep felt kindness are so easily buried under the great amount of newer and more trendy decks. Decks with more symbolism, gorgeous art, new systems and with such a rich and layered messages. I mean you have to be an awesome deck to compete with that. Somehow I do believe that every deck, every card can give us the message we need to hear, since it all comes from within ourselves or if you like from divine guidance.
So for today, I got Lakshmi - Bright Future:  "Stop worrying. Everything is going to be fine."  Lakshmi is the Hindu goddess of abundance and is often depicted with the elephant god Ganesh, the remover of obstacles. Her message is not to worry about all the terrible things that might happen, to hush your fears and worries and trust that the Universe/God has your best interest at heart.
I don’t believe this aspect of the divine will shower us with money and other riches but more that She and her Companion will grant us the strength and whatever more we need to move through our challenges and reap the due rewards. Also, I believe that focusing on this benevolent energy we are more likely to notice what She has given us and to express our gratitude for the abundance of the little things we notice each and every day. This way we become more and more aware of the abundance she bestows and feel more prosperous day by day
                                                                                                                                                        

Monday, July 24, 2017

New Moon in July

This new moon I have decided to use the whole deck again instead of only the Majors and for this coming lunation I got the Six of Cups from The Original Rider Waite Tarot.
The Six of Cups is my inner child card and whenever it comes up, it encourages me to give my little me some genuine love and attention. I know she loves to play and go out and honestly the last weeks we haven’t had enough time to do so. Life gets in the way so easily.

Another thing is that while thinking about this card and my inner child, I suddenly realized everybody has such a little girl or boy inside and it then occurred to me that others too might find it difficult to satisfy their own child’s needs. So I thought maybe it would make some difference if I would try to beware of that child, whenever I would come in contact with somebody. We are so much more inclined to be patient, and gentle with a child than with an adult. Just like we sometimes try to see the divine in someone maybe we could just as easily try to see the child as well

Saturday, July 22, 2017

Othala and Intuition – Your gut feeling will lead you home

Othala Intuition Dreams of Gaia Tarot
Today’s rune is Othala, the last rune of the Futhark, the end of your journey. It is the rune of heritage, inner wealth, coming home and finding your purpose, your destiny,.
So I wondered what energy I could consider to be my guide, my road sign, towards my purpose in live. Maybe I would even pull a card which would reveal my purpose in life…..
So I stood before my shelf with most of my decks, wondering which deck would be the one to answer my question and I picked The dreams of Gaia Tarot. After some extensive shuffling I pulled “Intuition”. Maybe not a representation of my life’s purpose but definitely a gentle guide towards it. Listening to my intuition will keep me on the right track for sure.
Our intuition is the voice beneath all reason. The undercurrent of our conscious mind. It is the voice which words our deeper knowledge. Of course feelings, inklings, gentle nudges and pulls are also ways of our intuition to communicate with us. For me intuition is not only the voice of our unconscious but also of our higher consciousness or maybe even of our divine spark or God herself.

More than often we tend to downplay synchronistic events  and coincidences. How much more magical our life would be, if we would see them as little miracles. Maybe this way we would me more keen to heed our intuition, so we would practice and strengthen this innate quality. This way our signposts to guide us where we are supposed to be would be written in neon lights instead of being hidden in the shadows of our mind.

Friday, July 21, 2017

Gebo and Son of Swords – The gift of reason and equanimity

Wild Unknown Tarot Son of Swords Gebo
Today’s rune is Gebo (Gift) which is all about giving and receiving; about reciprocity. It symbolises friendship and cooperation. So what could be my gift for today and/or what would by my gift to others? To answer this question I pulled the Son of Swords from the Wild Unknown Tarot.  My first reaction was, how could this card be possible a gift? But in the light of recent events, it gradually made sense to me.  Today M and I had an important doctor appointment. The gift for me was to be able to let go of my overly aggressive protective demeanour while talking to our physician. (yes, I still  can act like a vicious mother bear sometimes) and to feel relaxed and confident about the positive outcome of our conversation. My gift to our physician was that I could formulate my thoughts more clearly now about the subject and thankfully the three of us came to a very satisfying solution.

This experience will remind me that some equanimity during a difficult conversation is often more effective than barging in, being totally convinced that my way of seeing things is the right one and the need to convince everybody of my point a view who thinks slightly different.

Wednesday, July 19, 2017

Seven of Spirals and Seven of Scrolls – The power of imagination

Chrysalis Tarot Seven of SpiralsYesterday I drew the Seven of Spirals (Assertion) from the Chrysalis Tarot and which conveyed a strong inner “Yes” in me!  Since my “nurture” plans for Monday (due to all sorts of reasons) didn’t see the light of day, I figured I was entitled to a second chance to pamper myself.
But this card is not only about retreat and setting boundaries but also about going deep within (spirals) and finding your inner strength.  A strength which is so powerful that you will have to find the right balance to assert yourself. It pleases me the bear is sitting quietly in her cave and her gaze is more than enough to keep unwanted visitors at bay. Without growling or showing her claws she protects her sacred space. She knows her strength so she has no need to show it all the time. Only if needed she will react more fiercely. 
Chrysalis Tarot Seven of Scrolls
So this morning I asked what to do next and I got the Seven of Scrolls (indecision). This card feels very akin to the Two of Swords but it also highlights the need for creative imagination. As humans we are able to decide on so many levels: instinctive first reaction, logical reasoning, intuition, emotional response etc.
It is up to us which of these options we would use to make our decision but now and then it might be helpful not to pick our go-to problem-solving strategy. As a Queen of Swords person, this card tells me to let go of my reasoning abilities for a change and try to tap into my more creative imaginative side. That will help me to ponder what could be behind those two doors? Which one should I open? Where will it lead me? What does it bring me? So many questions, I think I might stay in my cave for another day also because it will be a very hot and humid day. 

Monday, July 17, 2017

Six of Swords- breathing out

My card for today is the Six of Swords from the Original Rider Waite Tarot. After having taken a break from Tarot for a few days, because I have been visiting my mother, it feels only natural to jump back in again with my all time favourite deck. It feels like a baby blanket after some very busy days. I wasn’t surprised by this card at all. I see myself coming home, travelling from turbulent waters to a complete rippleless part of the lake. A perfect place to still my mind and put myself at ease. In the little child, I see my little me who needs some extra time and care right now. I am so grateful to be able to accept that expecting things only will lead to disappointment, so I’d better step up myself and mother her for while; listen to her, seeing her for who she really is and what she needs right now from me. I am positive that when we return from this safe haven we both will sit up straight again with a big smile on our face.

Wednesday, July 12, 2017

Three of Coins and Two of Cups – Carefully moving closer …

I have been working with the Margarete Petersen Tarot for twelve days in a row now and I can’t seem to put it away and pick up another deck for my daily draws. I am utterly captivated by the beautiful artwork and clear and inspiring messages this deck has to offer.
Three of Coins Two of Cups Margarete Petersen Tarot
So for today, I drew the Three of Coins. Where the Two of Coins showed us two balancing feet, in this card we only see one. That means one foot has been lifted and is about to be put forward into a new direction; leaving old familiar patterns behind. The card also features the Om sign, which for me resembles a short prayer, said just before this foot will touch the earth. A prayer of trust that this will be the right path to follow.
And where, I wondered, might this path lead me? And I got the Two of Cups: Opening myself up to others and myself on an emotional level. A sense of belonging is essential to all living beings. It feels when I really open up to myself and to God it is so much more easy to open up to others as well. This card is all about giving and receiving and about loving kindness without expectations. Quite a challenge for me but not one I want to shy away from.

I love that this card strongly relates to The Lovers, which is my card for this lunation.

Monday, July 10, 2017

Four of Feathers and Ten of Cups - Finding Peace of mind

Four of Feather Ten of Cups  Margarete Petersen Tarot
Today’s card is the Four of Feathers (Four of Swords) from the Margarete Petersen Tarot. I love to receive this card from any deck. This card reminds me to quiet down and find some peace of mind. Although I do love almost every other version of The Four of Swords, I must say that this card is rendering its meaning so beautifully. We see a person resting in the darkest shade of blue. He is lying in a protective bubble with a large feather on top.  In the distance, we see hills and mountains. But for now, he doesn’t need to worry about them. For now there are no problems, no questions, no to-do’s no nothing. He only needs to breath and to be. The whole vibe of the card is so soothing. You can almost feel the caress of the soft feather on your skin.
Then I wondered what could help me to find this peace of mind and I got the Ten of Cups: a calm ocean glittering in the sunlight. Breath in and out like the rolling of the waves and realize just how blessed and loved you are.

I hope you all can find some inner stillness today. Even if it is only for just a moment …..

Saturday, July 8, 2017

Ace of Coins and Two of Flames - Some gardening tips

Ace of Coins Two of Flames Margarete Petersen
Today’s card is the Ace of Coins from the Margarete Petersen Tarot. In the center of the card, a snake is spiraling herself around a tiny seed. She feels protective because she knows how much potential this seed holds. It feels like she is waiting for the right moment to hand to over to me but first, she wants me to find out what it is  I need it for. Honestly, I don’t  know yet but I do know it holds the promise of abundance and growth of everything tangible in this world. Maybe I could plant it before I knew what it is I really want/need. This could be considered as a sign of trust. I wondered if she would give it to me under these conditions and then she pulled back…..

So I asked my deck what to do next with this little seed and I got the  Two of Flames. This card is affirming to me that we don’t need to know the outcome before we can plant our seed. We only have to give is warmth and love. We have to father and mother it. Sometimes it needs more active energy to grow and sometimes we have to let it rest. Both energies, passive and active are equally important for our seed to awaken and sprout. In the meantime, we can cherish this germinating period to ponder what wonderful gift we are about to receive. 

Thursday, July 6, 2017

Five of Feathers - Just throw in the towel

Five of Feathers Margarete Petersen Tarot
Today’s card is Five of Feathers from the Margarete Petersen Tarot. Since I read my cards mostly for personal development, I interpret The Five of Feathers often as an internal struggle. With the Five of fire in a few posts earlier, this struggle was heated and aggressive and emotions were all over the place. With this card however the energy is much more manipulative and calculative. Our mind wants to lure us into believing all kinds of fabrications about how we shouldn’t do what we want because we are not good enough, strong enough, bright enough etc.. For me, those stories are predominately fear based. They try to prevent me from acting and playing and experimenting. Well let me rephrase that: I  try to prevent myself from doing what I love.

So this card is all about undermining ourselves and focusing our energy on winning this endless fight. The advice this card is giving us is to quit, to throw in the towel. This is a battle that can’t be won, even if you think you are strong enough and victory is within your grasp. Believe me, it is not. As long as we keep fighting ourselves, we will feed our mind with energy to uphold an strengthen these demeaning opinions over us. No, the only thing we can do, just like in the five of Fire, is taking a step back and withdraw ourselves from the fight.  This is the only way to quiet our mind and listen to the soft voice of our inner Truth. The one that says we are wonderful, we can do anything we want….. 

Tuesday, July 4, 2017

Year ahead spread July – Seven of Swords and Nauthiz

It has been a while since I’ve blogged about my rune and card for the month ahead but I wanted to pick it up again. Why now you might think; well perhaps because it is quite a challenging pair. The rune Nauthiz talks about need and necessity,  about being faced with obstacles and finding the courage to move forward despite the fear it might cause you. It is also a rune of shadow work, of receiving the opportunity to dive deeper into the uncharted territory of who we are.
When we combine this with the Seven of Swords from the Wild Unknown Tarot, it speaks about how this journey is a lonely one. Shadow work is an undertaking which we have to do all by ourselves and with ourselves. The fox (or “The lone wolf” as I often call this card) is protecting, hiding one of the seven swords. The other six are hanging over him. It is not that he only values this own sword but he is reluctant to share it with others. His findings are too fresh, too vulnerable. Sometimes we have to take the time to process what we have experienced, learned before we put it out in the world.

Perhaps this month I will be doing a lot of journaling,  meditating and walking to get a more clear perspective about what it is my soul wants to share with me. Perfect for the hotter days to come.

Monday, July 3, 2017

Two of Coins - Taking a step back

Two of Coins Margarete Petersen
Today’s card is the Two of Coins from the Margarete Petersen tarot. In this card we see the soles of our feet while we are walking, carefully putting on foot before the other so we won’t step on the snake who has carefully wrapped herself in a lemniscate around our feet. She resembles the continuity of how we journey through life, of our ups and downs and of all our attempts to find balance again each and every time we seem to have lost it. This card also encourages us to walk (or whatever activity you want to engage in) more mindfully, to take a step back and become aware of what it is you are doing right now. Watch for a moment how you have been rushing and not being present with what you were doing and then do it differently; change the pattern

Today I was doing my grocery shopping and since this is not a hobby of mine I tend to do this as quickly as possible so I can go home and do something more to my liking. But today I slowed down and I was walking peacefully and mindfully from shop to shop and through the aisles, filling my shopping cart. It was a much more pleasant way of doing my shopping, also because I wasn’t so agitated and tired when I got home.

Saturday, July 1, 2017

Five of Flames - Remove yourself from the fight

Five of Flames Margarete Petersen
Today’s card is Five of Flames from the Margarete Petersen Tarot. This is a card of quarrel and rivalry, of trying to win at all cost because the only other option is to lose. This is something we definitely don’t want because we fear to be less than the other, to be put down and rejected. In the middle of the card, where the actual fight is going on, the red is fiery and vibrant. Here the little figures are battling with whoever stands in their way. It is each for themselves until the winner is declared. Often this struggle is mostly internal: heated discussions with our inner committee. 
But then I noticed the figure on the left side of the card with his hands on his head. He is slightly removing himself from the fight as if the aggression becomes too much for him. The moment when he will turn his head he will notice the yellows of this card. This is the place where he can find clarity about the situation they are all in. There he can question of the issue they are fighting about is really worth this display of this aggression.

Yes often if we take a step back and release the need to be on top of everything which is going on around us we also are able to release our need to be right and to be in control about what needs be done. I experience this most often when my two adult daughters are living their lives in their own way, making their own decisions and doing the best they can.  Taking a step back from my meddling nature I can observe more clearly so when they do need me I will be there.

Thursday, June 29, 2017

Eight of Arrows – Keep Going

Today’s card is the Eight of Arrows (aka the Eight of Swords) from the Wildwood Tarot.  We see a young woman struggling on her journey. Eight broken arrows are lying in the snow. They are of no use to her anymore.  Although her path is challenging, cold and lonely, she keeps going and she doesn’t give up. Her staff and her lantern are symbols of hope and determination. I prefer this depiction over the Rider-Waite version where the woman is blindfolded and not able to leave the imprisonment of her own thoughts.
No, this young woman is painfully aware of the brokenness of her arrows and how she has to rephrase her view of life, her feelings and ideas, her story. Often this is a lonely road to travel. Of course, we can ask for advice but the actual task, the decision to move forward,  is ours. This is, in my opinion, an act of great courage. 

This week we had a family get together to celebrate our wedding anniversary. This day is always filled with many contra dictionary feelings which leave me a bit shattered and down. Outdated expectations and missed opportunities are almost certain to come up on days like this. But although I am not feeling at my best. I do know it is best for me to keep going and to keep busy.

Saturday, June 24, 2017

New moon in June

For this new moon I have pulled a major from my just arrived Mother Peace Tarot as to what energy I should embrace during the next cycle of the moon. The two previous lunations I also drew a Major card and I found that the multilayered aspect of these cards made it so much more interesting to work with them for the duration of one month. So for this month I cut the deck and flipped through the cards until the first Major came up. And it was The Lovers.
Notice how the two lovers meet each other in the pink middle of the card. They can walk together under a bower of roses towards the setting sun.
Personally for me, The Lovers is not so much about romantic love but more about how to unite my masculine and feminine aspects, about how to become a whole person and last but not least about how to woo myself.  In my last post I have written about what a bit of makeup can do for your self-worth but now it seems my brand new feminine-oriented deck is taking it up a notch. It is as if She is using this small concession to pampering myself as a starting point to some major changes in my self-care and self-love practice. I think July is a perfect month to start pampering myself more regularly. 
(I am thinking strawberries, ice cream, sunshine, flowers etc) Yes, and not because I have to but because I want to be with myself. I will consciously choose to enjoy these moments as a loving caress for my soul.
Who knows, maybe at the end of this moon cycle, Me Myself and I will be going steady
J

Friday, June 23, 2017

Big Bold Vision with a touch of makeup

Sacred Rebels Oracle 15 Big Bold Vision
Today’s card is “Big Bold Vision” from the Sacred Rebels Oracle. This card encourages us to dream big; to not hold back when you are visualizing the most amazing things for yourself. I mean look at all the winged creatures in this card; they fill her mind with the most wonderful ideas and fantasies. For most of us this hard because while growing up we were taught to have only responsible dreams and goals and leave our capacity to dream big and limitless behind with our dolls and crayons.  I mean who needs a mother of two, who dreams of being an explorer, an artist, a farmer or who secretly even dreamed of becoming a nun.  All those dreams are still hidden somewhere and this card prompts me to revisit them if only for old times’ sake and perhaps to add some new ones:
Today I will think about what I want out of life when anything is possible.

Another thing which stands out for me in this card is the amount of effort and self-love it must have taken her to look like this. She definitely knows how to dress to impress.  I got the distinct feeling she has taken all this time to make herself look this beautiful for anyone but herself. Because she is absolutely worth it to pamper herself and to look as gorgeous as she can be.
I don’t treat myself very kindly in this area. Often I tell myself I don’t have the time but it is more that I don’t see the point in doing it only for myself when I am cooked up at home all day. So for today, I took the effort to put on some lipstick and mascara; just for myself because I wanted to. And it feels good. It is such a minor thing but with a unexcited major effect

I believe all women are pretty without makeup and can be pretty powerful with the right makeup” Bobbi Brown

Tuesday, June 20, 2017

Relax the hold of darkness and be at cause

Sacred Rebels Oracle 26 Relax the hold of darkness and be at cause
My card for today is “Relax the hold of darkness and be at cause”  from the Sacred Rebels Oracle. We see a skyclad lady kneeling down on a huge tree stump. The forest is dark. She is all alone but she is completely convinced that this is the place she has to be because in her heart she knew to come here and wait. And while waiting she relaxes the darkness within her. Immediately the created vacuum wanted to be filled and a sparkling light surrounded her, lifting her up, illuminating every part of her being: body spirit and soul.  Moving from Fear to Love in a split second is in my belief a magical experience.
So what is “relaxing the darkness” and what does “darkness” mean in this context? In my opinion, darkness here stands for fear-based thinking which can result in doubt, procrastination, self-numbing, excessive worrying, overthinking etc: everything which keeps you from engaging with life and trusting Love.  The card is asking us to relax the hold this darkness has over us. Note: we are not asked to let go of it entirely, because the fear of not being able to, would be exactly what this darkness would like us to think. No, we are asked to relax and to breath and gradually we will open up,  ready to receive the energy we need to focus on what it is we really want and what is that would make us feel truly alive.

So for today I will relax my darkness and create that blissful emptiness, ready to be filled with loving and intuitive guidance. 

Thursday, June 15, 2017

Raidho and The Hanged Man – The journey within

My rune for today is Raidho (wheel), the rune of traveling and movement. The question I like to ask this rune is: "Where do I go from here?" and I pulled The Hanged Man. 
Raidho The Hanged Man Original Rider Waite tarot the Wild Unknown Tarot The Vision Quest Tarot
So physically I am going nowhere but that doesn’t mean I am not going on a journey. The Hanged Man tells us it is time to take a pause and reflect on what we need to hold on to and nurture and what we need to let go off. What is bringing deep fulfillment and is contributing to our purpose in life? What is helping us to step into our authentic power?  How can we respond to life with Love instead of reacting in fear? So many questions, so many things to ponder about. To find the answer to all of this we only need to quiet down and listen. This can be done during meditation, or while taking a walk or just sitting in our garden and let the beauty of nature sink in.
The Hanged Man of the Rider Waite Tarot shows us the effect of this inner journey. Just look at the halo around the man’s head. In the Wild Unknown Tarot we see how  by hanging upside down the bat keeps his head in the light too and in the Vision Quest Tarot the Hanged man is replaced by a Native American who is indeed going on a Vision Quest, an inner journey of self-discovery and spiritual growth

All the cards, however, show in their own special way that what is unconscious and hidden deep within needs to be brought into the light. Not to get rid of it but to truly own it and transform it from something we fear into something we are able to love. 

Tuesday, June 13, 2017

Dreamer Queen – beyond knowledge…..

Tarot of the Sidhe Dreamer Queen
Today’s card is Dreamer Queen, aka Queen of Swords, from the Tarot of Sidhe. The queen is sitting in a green field on a stack of books on the top of a mountain. This mountain is so high that the queen is seated above the clouds.  The knowledge she gains and judgment she provides won’t be clouded by any of her personal issues. The Sun is shining brightly to emphasize her bright mind and clear insights.
But the knowledge we find in books can only bring us so far. There always comes a time when we have to close the books and digest everything we have learned to make it our own.  The Queen in this depiction is conferring with a little bird which could represent her intuition since all the Queens of the deck are highly gifted with this trait, even our more distant and reserved Dreamer Queen. Look how focused she is on the soft tune the little birdie is singing to her. And gradually the knowledge she has found in her books will be integrated with what she already knew and spiced up by her profound wisdom.

“Knowledge without  wisdom is a load of books on the back of an ass” (Japanese proverb)

Monday, June 12, 2017

Maker King – The gift of Skill

Tarot of the Sidhe Maker King
Today’s Card is Maker King, aka King of Pentacles, from the Tarot of the Sidhe. In this card we see a male member of the Sidhe, bare-chested, standing behind his anvil. He is admiring his latest achievement: a golden crown, still hot from the blazing fires of his forge. What  I love about this king is that it is crystal clear he has earned this noble position not by birth or election but merely by mastering his skills. This is the kind of king I would like to get advice and guidance from. He has experienced everything his people have been going through or are still going through. Their ups and downs, their accomplishment and failures. He is a king of the people and for the people.
I wonder how the world would look like if all our leaders were a bit more like the Maker King. Perhaps we should make a kind of rule that every leader should live amongst his people (incognito) for at least year. Who knows what difference that would make. Maybe they would have more compassion and empathy for the people they are about to rule….?

“All he has he makes his own,
The carpenter of his own throne,
The smith who forges his own crown
And earns his status and renown. “

Thursday, June 8, 2017

Defeating The Devil with the Ace of Pentacles

Original Rider Waite Tarot The Devil Ace of Pentacles
Today’s card is The Devil from the Original Rider Waite Tarot. We see a horned beast sitting on a block of concrete. A man and a woman are loosely chained to this block. If they wanted to, they could free themselves but fear and insecurity have stifled them.
The Devil is that part of your mind that whispers that you can’t do it, that you aren’t worthy or good enough, that if you can't do it well you’d better not do it at all or that you are just too tired today to do anything at all.  All these limiting and oppressing thoughts will keep you from moving forward, from growing, from becoming who you are meant to be and simply from enjoying your life.
So what to do when The Devil pays you a visit and throws his chains over your head? The Ace of Pentacles encourages us to get up and do something: do the dishes, water the plants, gesso a page. Whatever comes to mind, however simple it may be, the first action after the initial thought will set you free from the Devils influence.

What could be your Ace of Pentacles today?

Tuesday, June 6, 2017

Seven of Swords - Putting it all together

After yesterday’s card, the Seven of Swords seems to invite us to really take a good look at what we believe to be true and to shed some light over contradicting idea’s. This card invites me to write about my spiritual beliefs and how I came to this personal blend of several belief systems.
As you all know I was raised Christian but never felt quite comfortable with the exclusive nature of Christianity. Although I loved God and Jesus, the dogma’s were putting me off immensely.  So starting in adolescence,  I have always been trying to fit in with other kinds of spiritual groups but up until today I have never found one. Buddhism, Wicca, Paganism, they all have beautiful and deep truths but somehow I missed the God of my Childhood and, honestly, there was always the fear of being totally wrong and the impending consequences.
My altar was a beautiful representation of my confusion and my swaying between different beliefs. One day I would have representations of Mary, Jesus and other Christian symbols on my altar but a month later it could have changed into a celebration of nature and the Divine Feminine. When I was totally confused I reduced it to a few crystals and a large white candle.
Then I picked up “Paganism” by River and Joyce Higginbotham which taught me that our idea’s of Divinity are something entirely different then Divinity itself. Words, ideas etc are only limiting our perception of God.
This helped me to overcome the fear to be wrong and after long deliberation, I took a leap of faith and I wholeheartedly embraced God as truly multifaceted. It was such a relief not having to puzzle the pieces together but experiencing how everything blends in seamlessly: my love for Jesus and Mary are in no way contradicting with my reverence for Mother Holda and the  Great Mother. One thing that l really love is that with Jesus, I have a male aspect of God to relate to which was very difficult for me when I was solely focusing on Paganism.
In this card we see the old man desperately trying to fit his seven swords in a structure he can work with. I am now positive he will succeed but only when he is willing to implement some room for mystery and awe because our spirit can take us places where our mind cannot enter.

Monday, June 5, 2017

Six of Swords - Mind Traveling

Druidcraft Tarot Six of Swords
Today’s card is the Six of Swords from the Druidcraft Tarot. Two persons are sitting in a little boat: a young woman, a man. The boatman is guiding his boat of the river. I wonder where it is they are going to. They do have still some issues to resolve because they have brought their Swords with them. Where ever you go, you cannot outrun your problems but you can put them aside for a while so you can find some peace of mind and crossing the river in a boat will prevent you from drowning in your worries or get too tangled up in them.

Nowadays for me, there is no place like home, so I don’t see myself traveling in the real world anytime soon. But I do like travel in my mind: reading books, watching movies, fantasize or just wandering my mind and see where this will lead me. There is so much to discover in the boundless world of our imagination. The only thing we need is a cozy spot and the willingness to be taken on a journey by your inner ferryman.

Friday, June 2, 2017

Six and Ten of Fire – Use you energy wisely

Two cards today: the Six and the Ten of Fire from the Dreams of Gaia Tarot. First I drew the Six of Fire which represents a truce after a conflict. This could be a disagreement with somebody else or, perhaps even more often, an internal conflict. For today and in light of the meaning of the Ten of Fire, I 've picked the last option.

We see two opponents in the Six of Fire, crossing their swords but with the tip pointed down. The mediator is raising his right index finger up as if he is going to speak his verdict over this argument. If they are going to abide by this ruling is going to depend on whether they both are willing to compromise and to listen to each other’s point a view. Yes, sometimes we have to call a halt to our inner combats. It is a loss of vital energy and our rational mind has to put a stop to this. When we can find some internal peace, then we can direct our energy to something more fulfilling like to the energy of the Ten of Fire. This is the card of “mastery of craft and of self”. This kind of mastery doesn’t come overnight. No, we have to apply ourselves diligently and passionately. This card doesn’t imply you have to become the very best but it does encourage us to do your very best. As long as we improve ourselves and our craft we are on the right track. And, let’s not forget to celebrate our achievements along the way. Yes, seeing this card, the quarrel in the Six of Fire seem ever so futile.

Ps I Love how the Dandelions bloom  thanks to the overflowing cup of the mediator 

Wednesday, May 31, 2017

Five of Water – Open your eyes and smile

Dreams of Gaia Tarot Five of Water
Today’s card is the Five of Water from the Dreams of Gaia Tarot.  We see a mermaid crouched on the bottom of the sea. Her head is bowed down, her eyes are closed and she looks very downhearted.  She doesn’t see the orange colored fish nor does she see the golden ring with a beautiful pearl hidden between the coral. From above radiant sparkly light is shining down on her. But she doesn’t notice this either, Why is she so said? What is troubling her? Grief, fear, worries, regret, guilt….? These are all emotions which paralyze us and/or block us from moving away from this place of anguish. They keep us from focusing on the beauty and abundance in our life which is still available for us. So little mermaid, open your eyes, put the ring on your finger and swim with the fish towards the light. I am sure this will put a smile on your face again
P.S. For me today this Light also represents the Divine which I come to see more and more as a source of Loving and Compassionate Energy which is always with me even if I don’t  realize this.

Tuesday, May 30, 2017

The Counsellor – Diving into deep water

Today’s card is The Counsellor from the Dreams of Gaia Tarot. This is the second time he has come up this week and I am not surprised at all. Lately, I have been pondering about the way I tend to read my tarot cards. I usually have a very quick and certain style of interpreting my cards. And if  I doubt myself (which is still quite regularly) I open up the guidebook and read what the “intended” meaning is for this card. Trusting the written word is often easier than trusting your own ideas
But I want more and I want to dive deeper. Perhaps this quick way of reading my cards is caused by fear of discovering a more personal meaning of a card.
And then The Counsellor arrives on my doorstep and he invites me to sit down and he asks me how I feel and then he is quiet and he waits... First, there is silence but then I start talking and talking and it almost seems as if I have opened up a bottomless pit. One subject leads to another, free associations are whirling through my mind. Everything goes, everything is okay no censor, no uncertainties, just talking and talking….
And I think that is the answer on how to read more intuitively: don’t be afraid of the initial silence and let your mind roam free. Just sit a while with your card and notice how it makes you feel, what stands out and how can you form sentences around these feelings and observations.
This way of reading not entirely new to me but it isn’t one I practice a lot. So the Counsellor is a welcome guide for this endeavor

Sunday, May 28, 2017

Child of Air - Keeping a “beginners mind”

Today’s card is the Child of Air from the Gaian Tarot. The Children (Pages) in this deck are all curious, wondering, playful, and they all have a “beginners mind”
The Child of Air is definitely in awe of the rabble of butterflies which is flying around her. One of the butterflies is even resting on her hand. Because of her calm and steady posture,  she is not at all startled by the fluttering of wings around her head. No, she is totally focused on that one big yellow butterfly sitting on her hand.
The Child of Air encourages us to be open-minded to all kinds of points of view and to soak up whatever information we can get our hands on. But, she also teaches us to stay alert and present so we will not drown ourselves in numerous redundant facts and loose perspective of what we wanted to accomplish the first place.

Affirmation . “I learn new things by keeping an open mind.”

Friday, May 26, 2017

New Moon in May

For this new moon, I have pulled one card from the Gaian Tarot as to what energy  I should embrace during this next cycle of the Moon and I got The Sun.
This card puts a big smile on my face. As you all know I haven't been feeling all too well as of late but now, when I am starting to feel a lot better this card is an affirmation to hold on to this positive change in my life. I don’t expect everything to go smoothly and within my control but I can try to focus on the things that make me happy and on what  I am grateful for. It is often not so much the reality which makes us happy, sad or anxious but the way we perceive this reality. This card encourages me to seek joy intentionally and if I can’t find it, it urges me to do something which makes me feel good: painting and drawing, walking and riding my bicycle, enjoying my garden, eating strawberries and chocolate and reading a good book or perhaps even buying a red dress. And yes, it's okay to spend time with myself because I am totally worth it!
I also love that when I feel good, others seem to feel better too. It seems that Joy and Happiness are as contagious as an ordinary cold
All in all, I am really looking forward to working with the energy of this card for the next four weeks.
Affirmation from the guidebook: I "choose to make a life that creates happiness for myself and for others.”

Wednesday, May 24, 2017

Seven of Water – Try them all

Today’s card is the Seven of Water from the Gaian Tarot. A man has been offered seven cups and he can choose only one to drink from. I wonder how he has made his decision. Did he take a whiff or maybe even a sip from each cup? Or is this considered cheating and do we have to be content with whatever we get. Hopefully, he has intuitively chosen the right cup, the right dream to follow through. The birds in the lake behind him don’t have to choose. They can have it all. Catch each and every fish they can get and swallow them if they taste good.

Today this card makes me feel a bit obstinate. I want to take a sip from every cup presented here. I want to try and taste them all. I want to know my options. Only then I can make a well-considered choice! 

Tuesday, May 23, 2017

Four of Cups - Snap out of it!

Rider Waite Tarot Four of Cups Rose Quartz Citrine
Today’s card is the Four of Cups from the Smith-Waite Centennial Tarot. This card is all about discontent, boredom and lack of interest in about everything. Look how he has closed himself off from all outside suggestions on how to feel better. If we are getting stuck in this energy it can easily lead to self-pity and even depression.

It has been quite a while since I really felt like blogging or in doing anything whatsoever and this card depicts this feeling perfectly well,. Yes, I have been very busy moving my husband to a temporary care home because the house where he was living before is getting a rebuild. This event was physical and emotional draining for me. It left me with little energy for myself and it eventually got the best of me. I know all too well this kind of thinking can easily become habitual and self-sustaining. I knew something had to change but it felt like I wasn’t able to do so. Until this morning, when M told me I had to become responsible for my own wellbeing and to be willing to do the things which would make me feel better. She can be quite persuasive when she feels it is necessary. So I got out of my chair, took a shower, went out for some groceries and started blogging. I feel like a different woman now. I have flipped a switch and I have snapped out of this funk.  Thank you, my dear girl, for a firm kick in the butt.

Wednesday, May 10, 2017

Nightingale - Trust

Nightingale Trust Het Elfenorakel
Walking in the park. Picking Bluebells and Buttercups. Feeling Summer in my heart and on my skin. This morning I have also meditated for 15 minutes which was a great accomplishment as well. All in all, today is starting out to be a good day. Al this has inspired me to pick up an oracle I’ve never used before, although I have it my collection for ages: Too light, too simple, too fluffy. But honestly I could use a dose of light and fluff. So I shuffled my cards and I pulled Nightingale – trust: My word for the year and a confirmation that all things will be well.  After each night the sun will come out inevitably so why not sing to instead of fight with the darkness.  All these smalls tokens of hope and trust, like my walk, my mediation, creating an art journal page, enjoying coffee with a bonbon and last but not least, writing this blog post after so long; all these things  are bright shining stars guiding me on my journey and ensuring me that wherever I am, I am never lost.

Oracle used: "The Cards of the Elves" by Tiziana Mattera

Wednesday, April 19, 2017

Waterfall and Calendar - Tick tock, tick tock…

Today’s cards are Waterfall and Calendar from The Chronicles of Destiny Fortune Cards. 
Chronicles of Destiny Fortune Cards Waterfall Calendar

In our present society we are mostly ruled by the clock and our calendar. We make appointments and try to keep them. We implement routines and schedule our obligations until little white space is left on our to-do lists and in our diaries. This habit makes it even more important to plan some time for ourselves.  And not just ten minutes or  a spare hour somewhere between the dentist and  a meeting but I was thinking more about an evening, an entire day or a weekend; enough time to be able to just flow with the hours instead of keeping track of them on your watch. Together these cards emphasize the important of replenishing your soul on a deep level; to let ourselves be revitalized and healed thoroughly. Take enough time for yourself . You are so worth it. The Calendar card reminds us there is a big difference between a morning shower and a bath by candlelight.

Monday, April 17, 2017

Expressing Gratitude with the Wild Unknown Tarot

Today’s question: “what am I most grateful for?”  got me thinking about how,  when we express our gratitude, we often talk/write about the same daily experiences like: A sunny day, a cup of coffee, cuddling with our furry friends  or looking at the flowers in our garden. Reading in my gratitude journal, I notice how I tend to repeat the same things and over again. And yes, I am truly grateful for them but this question filled me with the desire to stretch my perceptive a little and maybe look a bit more inwardly. So I asked the tarot to show me three aspects in my life for which I am grateful: three joy’s which are sometimes a bit out of reach of my day to day experience. From the Wild Unknown Tarot I  pulled:
The wild unknown tarot The Moon Four of Swords Four of Wands

The Moon: I am grateful or each time I am brave enough to face my fears and do it anyway. The last few days  I have been making abstract art journal pages  and each time it became too “pretty” I used gesso to “mess it up “ again
Four of Swords:  I am grateful for each moment of peace and quiet in a day. They give me a sense of security and also trust that I can return to this place whenever I need it.
Four of Wands: I am grateful for the pauses in life which are meant to celebrate what I have achieved. Resting in the blue center  of gratitude before  being ignited by the fiery passion of the wands again

Thursday, April 13, 2017

Four of Swords – Quiet down our Inner Critic

Original Rider Waite Tarot Four of Swords
Today’s question is: "How can I let go of self doubt?" and I pulled the Four of Swords. As you know this is one of my “sigh” cards; my permission to let go and quiet down the mind from anxiety and those nagging critical inner voices.  After having completed my oracle challenge on IG, I am experiencing waves of self doubt again. Afraid of putting something on the page which is less “pretty“ than my DIY deck.  Even in my art journal, where I try to play more freely and experiment with my art supplies, I feel the urge to create something “beautiful” and with “beautiful” I mean worthy to show other people. This feeling  has made it crystal clear to me  my that  Inner Critic is holding the reins (again)
So this morning I decided to take up my habit of writing 750 Words a day, before doing anything else. This is the digital equivalent of writing morning pages. For me it is a perfect way to clear my mind and to get those creative juices flowing again. This way I will be able to create room to relax and to do whatever fills me with joy, without any result oriented expectations. This  could be just as simple as allowing myself to take a nap, a walk or perhaps filling up a (new) page in my art  journal just for the fun of it. And no, I am not obliged to finish the last page and make it more “pretty”. Maybe it is even better to fill up some loose leave pages first. Just putting a few collage elements, some paint and some scribbles on them to overcome my fear and to loosen up a bit. The only rule is to keep it abstract!
All and all a very timely question for me today.