Five of Water – Open your eyes and smile

Today’s card is the Five of Water from the Dreams of Gaia Tarot.  We see a mermaid crouched on the bottom of the sea. Her head is bowed down, her eyes are closed and she looks very downhearted.  She doesn’t see the orange colored fish nor does she see the golden ring with a beautiful pearl hidden between the coral. From above radiant sparkly light is shining down on her. But she doesn’t notice this either, Why is she so said? What is troubling her? Grief, fear, worries, regret, guilt….? These are all emotions which paralyze us and/or block us from moving away from this place of anguish. They keep us from focusing on the beauty and abundance in our life which is still available for us. So little mermaid, open your eyes, put the ring on your finger and swim with the fish towards the light. I am sure this will put a smile on your face again

P.S. For me today this Light also represents the Divine which I come to see more and more as a source of Loving and Compassionate Energy which is always with me even if I don’t  realize this.

The Counsellor – Diving into deep water

Today’s card is The Counsellor from the Dreams of Gaia Tarot. This is the second time he has come up this week and I am not surprised at all. Lately, I have been pondering about the way I tend to read my tarot cards. I usually have a very quick and certain style of interpreting my cards. And if  I doubt myself (which is still quite regularly) I open up the guidebook and read what the “intended” meaning is for this card. Trusting the written word is often easier than trusting your own ideas

But I want more and I want to dive deeper. Perhaps this quick way of reading my cards is caused by fear of discovering a more personal meaning of a card.

And then The Counsellor arrives on my doorstep and he invites me to sit down and he asks me how I feel and then he is quiet and he waits... First, there is silence but then I start talking and talking and it almost seems as if I have opened up a bottomless pit. One subject leads to another, free associations are whirling through my mind. Everything goes, everything is okay no censor, no uncertainties, just talking and talking….

And I think that is the answer on how to read more intuitively: don’t be afraid of the initial silence and let your mind roam free. Just sit a while with your card and notice how it makes you feel, what stands out and how can you form sentences around these feelings and observations.

This way of reading not entirely new to me but it isn’t one I practice a lot. So the Counsellor is a welcome guide for this endeavor

Child of Air - Keeping a “beginners mind”

Today’s card is the Child of Air from the Gaian Tarot. The Children (Pages) in this deck are all curious, wondering, playful, and they all have a “beginners mind”

The Child of Air is definitely in awe of the rabble of butterflies which is flying around her. One of the butterflies is even resting on her hand. Because of her calm and steady posture,  she is not at all startled by the fluttering of wings around her head. No, she is totally focused on that one big yellow butterfly sitting on her hand.

The Child of Air encourages us to be open-minded to all kinds of points of view and to soak up whatever information we can get our hands on. But, she also teaches us to stay alert and present so we will not drown ourselves in numerous redundant facts and loose perspective of what we wanted to accomplish the first place.

Affirmation . “I learn new things by keeping an open mind.”

New Moon in May

For this new moon, I have pulled one card from the Gaian Tarot as to what energy  I should embrace during this next cycle of the Moon and I got The Sun.
This card puts a big smile on my face. As you all know I haven't been feeling all too well as of late but now, when I am starting to feel a lot better this card is an affirmation to hold on to this positive change in my life. I don’t expect everything to go smoothly and within my control but I can try to focus on the things that make me happy and on what  I am grateful for. It is often not so much the reality which makes us happy, sad or anxious but the way we perceive this reality. This card encourages me to seek joy intentionally and if I can’t find it, it urges me to do something which makes me feel good: painting and drawing, walking and riding my bicycle, enjoying my garden, eating strawberries and chocolate and reading a good book or perhaps even buying a red dress. And yes, it's okay to spend time with myself because I am totally worth it!
I also love that when I feel good, others seem to feel better too. It seems that Joy and Happiness are as contagious as an ordinary cold
All in all, I am really looking forward to working with the energy of this card for the next four weeks.
Affirmation from the guidebook: I "choose to make a life that creates happiness for myself and for others.”

Seven of Water – Try them all

Today’s card is the Seven of Water from the Gaian Tarot. A man has been offered seven cups and he can choose only one to drink from. I wonder how he has made his decision. Did he take a whiff or maybe even a sip from each cup? Or is this considered cheating and do we have to be content with whatever we get. Hopefully, he has intuitively chosen the right cup, the right dream to follow through. The birds in the lake behind him don’t have to choose. They can have it all. Catch each and every fish they can get and swallow them if they taste good.

Today this card makes me feel a bit obstinate. I want to take a sip from every cup presented here. I want to try and taste them all. I want to know my options. Only then I can make a well-considered choice! 

Four of Cups - Snap out of it!

Today’s card is the Four of Cups from the Smith-Waite Centennial Tarot. This card is all about discontent, boredom and lack of interest in about everything. Look how he has closed himself off from all outside suggestions on how to feel better. If we are getting stuck in this energy it can easily lead to self-pity and even depression.

It has been quite a while since I really felt like blogging or in doing anything whatsoever and this card depicts this feeling perfectly well,. Yes, I have been very busy moving my husband to a temporary care home because the house where he was living before is getting a rebuild. This event was physical and emotional draining for me. It left me with little energy for myself and it eventually got the best of me. I know all too well this kind of thinking can easily become habitual and self-sustaining. I knew something had to change but it felt like I wasn’t able to do so. Until this morning, when M told me I had to become responsible for my own wellbeing and to be willing to do the things which would make me feel better. She can be quite persuasive when she feels it is necessary. So I got out of my chair, took a shower, went out for some groceries and started blogging. I feel like a different woman now. I have flipped a switch and I have snapped out of this funk.  Thank you, my dear girl, for a firm kick in the butt.

Nightingale - Trust

Walking in the park. Picking Bluebells and Buttercups. Feeling Summer in my heart and on my skin. This morning I have also meditated for 15 minutes which was a great accomplishment as well. All in all, today is starting out to be a good day. Al this has inspired me to pick up an oracle I’ve never used before, although I have it my collection for ages: Too light, too simple, too fluffy. But honestly I could use a dose of light and fluff. So I shuffled my cards and I pulled Nightingale – trust: My word for the year and a confirmation that all things will be well.  After each night the sun will come out inevitably so why not sing to instead of fight with the darkness.  All these smalls tokens of hope and trust, like my walk, my mediation, creating an art journal page, enjoying coffee with a bonbon and last but not least, writing this blog post after so long; all these things  are bright shining stars guiding me on my journey and ensuring me that wherever I am, I am never lost.

Oracle used: "The Cards of the Elves" by Tiziana Mattera