This Four of Cups from the Anna K tarot
couldn't be more fitting for me and is so right on time to be my wake-up call. I've told you before I was feeling a bit
under the weather lately and I have to
admit I have ordered a few decks to feel better. Although I am super glad with
those decks, I know I wasn't ready to explore new decks since I've got my birthday
presents in may. But one way or the other they just kept being delivered by the
postman. He is such a great guy! J
Anyway I
feel a bit like this man in the picture. He’s got all these delicious dishes
handed to him by his loving daughters and he doesn't seem to appreciate the
taste or the effort at all. He is just sitting there wanting something better or different.
Emotional
shopping or eating or whatever takes your mind of the hurt or the sadness is
never fulfilling. The hole is just as deep when the first rush of excitement
about a new purchase or chocolate bar with hazelnuts has faded.
So what
does this all practically means to me?
- I am going
to put a stop to my splurging on decks until September the 21
- I will keep
meditating to be more connected with The
Divine and myself
- I will play with the decks I have and try to enjoy them and connect with them on a deeper level (diviner)
- I will pick
up my gratitude practice in order to be more aware of the abundance in my life
- I will try
to take better care of myself; to be more attentive to my actual needs instead of
burying them under heaps of stuff and cookies
- I am not
going to beat myself up if one of the resolutions above don’t work out (Broom )

The last deck which has arrived was the
Enchanted Lenormand.
When I took the cards out of the box two of them fell out
: the Broom ( something is swept away, cleansed or some kind of punishment or quarrel ) and the Diviner ( well guess who that is with all her cards). It
seems I have to clean and organize my drawer and take stock of what I have and
be happy with it. Then I want to sweep out
this negative behavior of numbing my feelings.
“Gratitude
unlocks the fullness of life. It turns what we have into enough, and more. It
turns denial into acceptance, chaos to order, confusion to clarity. It can turn
a meal into a feast, a house into a home, a stranger into a friend.” Melody
Beattie