Showing posts with label anger. Show all posts
Showing posts with label anger. Show all posts

Monday, July 14, 2014

Ten of Swords - Sometimes I get so angry.

Tarot of the Hidden Realm Julia Jeffrey, Ten of Swords
"This has to end! This has to stop right now!" The screams of the Morrigan  resound in my mind when I look at this Ten of Swords from the Tarot of the Hidden Realm. I can so relate to this feeling of inner rage. Always being kind, nice, friendly and polite does that to a person. 
A few days ago I had a serious fight with M (we 're all good now J) It did release a lot of stress and just half hour after this outburst we were able to communicate and sort out our differences in good harmony.
Yesterday I had visited my husband and as usual that caused me some anxiety and stress.That's why I had planned to do something relaxing for myself afterwards. Only a "friend" called me the minute after I came home, again  with some self-inflicted problem, which blew my fuses.  I kept calm and friendly but after our conversation., I had to free one single scream of deep felt irritation. On slash of this sword and there was silence in my mind and a sigh of relief. This Ten of Swords is a culmination of terror and anger and at the same time the end of it all. So for me it was a most welcome card to explore 

Affirmation: Today I am going to speak my mind instead of fueling my rage.

I was raised in a family where none of us ever raised a voice, so there was no room to express feelings of rage or even unabashed joy - a little bashed joy, here or there, or being mildly disgruntled.” Anne Lamott