After the my
last post about the Five of Knives, today I drew a card from the Tarot of Vampyres
with the following question: What do I need to dispel the shadow; who will
wake me up from this dreamy, unconscious state of mind?
And then
there she is: The Queen of Knives, my most favorite ally in a tarot deck and the representation
of that part of me which can deal with almost everything. She is the one who takes
over when somebody in my family needs my complete attention, support and problem
solving skills. And now she is here for me. How often do we forget to apply our
strengths to help ourselves.
This Queen is the embodiment of consciousness and intelligence with a intuitive
and caring nature, She is a queen after all. She is intelligent and empathetic,
honest and wise and although she can be
painfully truthful, she never intends to hurt us. I always think of her as woman who has experienced the entire suit of Swords, so she knows what problems we are dealing with when we come to her for help. She is determined to shine her light over our clouded minds. She
uncovers our fears and our detrimental defense mechanisms. She allows our true
self to shine. She separates our mind from our unconscious, hardly impenetrable, swamp and in doing so she enables
us to a see our fears for what they really are. And this can be the first step
to embrace our shadow instead of fearing it. The most important lesson she will teach us today is
to be honest. And being totally honest to
ourselves is maybe the most difficult aspect of honesty there is.
