For today I have drawn the Page of Swords from the Tarot of the
Hidden Realm. We see a young fey woman, with feathers in her hair, handling her
sword. She is about to start her practice or perhaps she is just finished and putting
her sword back in its sheath. In either case she is determined to get more proficient
each day. She want to be ready for battle when needed.
Swords are
all about thought and ideas and today this card is telling me to wrap my thoughts
about some issues I’ve been putting off. To stop the doubting and swaying back and
forth and to try to be more specific
with what I know, belief and stand for; to try to put words to my blurry thoughts.
Doubting is great but it is also good to determine exactly what it is what is making
you doubt. I have the tendency to avoid the more intricate subjects hidden in the
corners of my mind.
Although I
am a fervent journaler, I am also a bit apprehensive
to see my more uncertain thoughts in writing. I have to remember I am just like
this page: practicing, so not every slash with my sword has to hit its mark.
“Journaling is like whispering to one’s self
and listening at the same time” M. Murray
Figuring out our own beliefs is an ever-evolving process. Good to spend some time on it, and also to acknowledge that we may not be able to express it perfectly - so much is also in the unsaid, and perhaps unsayable… :)
ReplyDeleteYes it is sometimes it gets tiring but never boring
DeleteI think most is hidden between the lines :)
Journaling is one of those tools that really helps me peel off my layers and look underneath. And while I might be uncomfortable with some of the things I uncover, other ideas can be comforting and encouraging!
ReplyDeleteI love to it when I find little treasures when I journal. When you dig a little deeper you'll never now what will be uncovered. Both gifts and challenges are always welcome :)
Delete" not every slash with my sword has to hit its mark." I like that. I don't know if I ever mentioned this book to you Ellen. I can't imagine that I haven't, as I know I have written about it's great influence on me. "The Spirituality of Imperfection" by Ernest Kurtz and Katherine Ketchum. It explores the stories and thoughts of Hebrew prophets, Greek thinkers, Buddhist sages and Christian disciples. I think you would find it very insightful.
ReplyDeleteThank you Catherine, I will look into it for sure.
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