After all
the hectic events of the last couple of days we are getting back in our normal
routine and for this day I have drawn the King of Rods from the Anna K tarot.
This king is radiating fire and passion. Most of the picture is painted in
yellow, red and orange. He is walking with a confident pace and a clenched fist
which both are signs of his determination. Looking at his face I don’t think he
is angry. He is creative and resourceful and he inspires (expects) others to be so too (No
pressure J)
“I am not a tame man. Although I am a leader,
and bear responsibility well, my heart is forever free from the restraints of
guilt, shame or routine. I am the fire behind all new adventures. I thrive on
dynamic change. I live life to the fullest, and choose to pursue every
experience I can that will bring excitement and enrichment into my life. I live
by my convictions, and guard them with passion. I love grand gestures, dramatic
expression, artistic pursuits. I am a force to be reckoned with, and I command
respect from everyone.” (Leila Vey)
Well to
be honest, I am not a King of Rods person. He is too dominant in my opinion:
Fire times two.He is
too much of everything. I would be shattered by someone like him. Perhaps it is
significant that I don’t like the guy. What does it say about me? I used to be a
people pleaser; making everybody happy at my own expense. A lot has happened since
then and now I am in a place where most of the time I am brave enough to say :”No!”
. But I think beneath that strong voice there is still a lot of insecurity and fear: what if something happens and I will
fall back into those old behavior patterns?
Perhaps that
is what this king is representing for me: an over overconfident person who will
overstep my fragile boundaries. And of
course this King can also be a pressing situation
where I am obliged to give in for everybody’s sake. While writing this and thinking
it over I am not surprised I don’t like this king.
