New Moon in September - Gratitude can be found in every situation

For today I’ve chosen to work with the Goddess tarot by Kriss Waldherr. Maybe this choice of deck is influenced by the large amount of red and orange in my last Art journal page or, which I think is more likely, I felt in need of some serious motherly energy. Although my  cards did not feel like motherly cuddles and hugs, they did offer me some clear advice for the coming month:

Release - Ace of Cups

A difficult card in this position. Why should I want to release a potential of Love and Creativity. But then it hit me. It is my clinging to this Ace which I need to release. The urge to feel happy , joyful and creative all the time. Sometimes its feel like I am on ongoing quest to feel good.  And even that can become a exhausting burden. So to let go of this Ace will make room for life to flow more effortlessly and fluently.

Embrace - Fortune  Lakshmi

Lakshmi is a Hindu goddess of abundance, wealth, prosperity both in the material and spiritual field. At first glance you might think why should you have to release that lovely Ace if this is your embrace card? Receiving Abundance and spiritual wisdom is not related to feeling happy or loved. The abundance of life is bestowed to us not matter how we feel. It is up to us to discover this Fortune in every situation of our life and when we find it to be grateful for it. In doing so our hearts will be more open to receive Love and Creativity. So when we are able to let go of the  Ace of Cups, it will return to us naturally.

The Wheel – Weave your own destiny

For today I've picked up My Wildwood Tarot and I've pulled The Wheel. Usually I am at bit at a loss when I draw The Wheel of Fortune but this one with the loom, speaks to me more clearly than most of my other depictions of this card. I love how it feels like this loom is waiting to be used. I feel invited to pick up the shuttle and continue to weave this garment. It has already a woven wheel of the year design, a representation of ongoing cycles and inevitable changes. In the back we see three herons waiting for the weaver. They are symbolizing the three Norns or Fates. They spin the threads of life for each person and decide when to cut it. When I think of the balance between fate and free will, I guess this loom is a perfect symbol. Perhaps the waft is the Grand design and the weft is our own personal destiny which we shape with each choice and action we make.

Yesterday M had two wisdom tooth removed. The surgeon had offered her to wait some months to be more prepared and accustomed to the idea of having her teeth pulled but in the end they would have to come out anyway. She made the brave decision to go ahead with the procedure and now she feels fine and is so relieved. This choice has become a strong piece of yarn to weave in her robe.

“Fate is what you are given. Destiny is what you make of it”

Interview with the Wildwood Tarot

Never before have I done a deck interview spread with a new tarot deck. But yesterday, with this deck it felt like it was the appropriate thing to do. In that way we would get formally introduced to each other. Although I know it’s just a pack of 78 cards, it feels like there´s an old energy  surrounding this deck. It’s making me a little bit hesitant to approach it; to work with it. I’m not that overly sensitive, so this is rather new for me and I am wondering: who am I kidding? That’s why I decided to do the deck interview. I've mixed up some the other interview spreads that I've found online. These are the questions for my deck and the cards that I've drawn:

Wildwood Tarot deck  interview

1.       Who are you?

The Wheel -  I am the loom of the Wildwood and I will teach you how to weave

2.       What is your most important characteristic?

Eight of arrows -  I have enough courage and dedication to keep going even when our thoughts  collide and dilemma’s arise. I will keep my torch burning hoping for better times.

3.       What are you going to teach me?

The Gardian - I will show you how to face your fears and how to enter the dark caverns of your mind.

4.       what can I give you in return?

Ten of arrows -  Respect and reverence and an open communication

5.       What are your strengths as a deck?

Knight of bows – fox – I am determined, dynamic and clever, and where necessary innovating.

6.       What will our relationship be like?

Four of vessels – beware of boredom and disenchantment after the first rush of infatuation . We’ll strive to keep things fresh and alive and search for new challenges.

7.       Is there anything else you would like to tell me about yourself?

Queen of vessels – My child I will guide you with love through the Wildwood and I’ll ask you to dedicate yourself with an honest and open mind to our journey together

This was a very deep experience. I just sat at my table watching my cards and felt really connected to whatever it was I felt. For some cards I had to look up additional information in the guide book but the overall message was very clear… I had to laugh about the gift of respect this deck wants from me. I was right about that J

Also the Fox of bows has given an unexpected touch to this reading. “Innovating and clever” wasn't what I had in mind for this deck. It has added an unknown spark of wit to it.

This reading has been very helpful to get the edge of our first real encounter and we’ll see where we’ll go from here.

Unexpected Samhain reading

October 25: In the autumn hedgehogs do need  lots of food to build reserves for hibernation. In late November they go find a place to sleep. Which cozy warm place  can I make for myself now winter is coming?

Druidcraft Tarot

First I've pulled Death from the Druidcraft Tarot. That didn't feel right at all. How can Death be symbolizing my warm cozy place. So I pulled another card as a clarifier: The wheel. Not so cozy either. Honestly I am lost for words at this moment. But these are my cards and I’m sure they can teach me something….

To be able to enjoy the warmth and coziness of winter I want to achieve a relaxed state of mind; not too much worries and difficult decisions on the lurk

Death can help me with that. This card is all about letting go what serves me no more. And I tend to cling on to old stagnating problems, patterns and worries. (eight of swords). Or perhaps I can confront some of them in a healing way and put them in my cauldron of rebirth so their energies can serve me in a more healthy way.

The wheel is also all about patterns and cycles, harvesting and letting go and then moving forward. This cards teaches us also about inevitability. Sometimes life is what it is and we just have to accept it. The woman in the card is drawing her circle and she is making a place for herself between the worlds. She’s putting up a boundary between her and the rest of the world. In her hand she’s holding  the symbol of the wheel of the year. 

Druidcraft Tarot

This wheel teaches me to find the patterns and cycles in nature as well as in my own life. And on a very basic level, the drawing of the circle tells me that I can set up my cozy place where ever I am as long as I'm happy and content and I belief in my own worth and strength

Writing about these two cards is helping me to find meaning for myself right now. If I want to enjoy the coziness in my home and with my family I have to set out time for myself to explore The wheel of the year’s cycles an patterns as well as my own. And while doing so I want to try finally to let go of some old pains and grief and limiting beliefs.

This reading feels for me like a Samhain reading. The time of year to start over from scratch; to dive deep in the dark caves of my soul in winter and find there the seeds for new live in spring.

These two cards will be on my altar until after Samhain that’s for sure.

It is funny In the beginning of this post I just hardly knew what to write and now I am so sure these were the right cards for me J