Thursday, October 9, 2014

Dreamer Three - Soul Loss

Tarot of the Sidhe Dreamer three Soul Loss Three of Swords
Well to be honest, I didn't expect to get this card after yesterday’s Dreamer Ten. But today we've got Dreamer Three (the Three of Swords) from the Tarot of the Sidhe. We see a Sidhe woman with her heart ripped out. It is torn apart and eaten by three black ravens. The three trees which are rooted in her skirt are bare. With her hair she is connected to the blood red clouds and behind her a large sun is rising behind the mountains. She is fully merged with her surroundings yet she is heart - and soulless.
Every time when I get this card I wonder: What is eating away my soul? Which grief and/or pain have I not fully embraced yet?
So often grief and sadness are cloaked in anger, fear, guilt or regret. Those feelings can fester deep and feed off  your joy and energy. Only when we can dig deeper, beyond the surface and dare to feel the pain, we can heal and move on. It can be a scary and lonely road because when one pain is discovered a lot of the others might wake up too and  this can be a very overwhelming experience. So it is good to know the morning sun will always lead you home again. The relief and the related relaxation will make it so worth your while to embark on this journey.

“The heart of Dream is torn in three
Leaving a hole where the whole should be
The blessed ravens feast on sorrow
That the light may bring a fairer morrow”
(Emily Carding)

8 comments:

  1. You are so right that the sadness can be cloaked as something else; for me it was often anger because that felt more powerful. Of course the "hole" was never made whole until I figured that out. The last two lines of Carding's poem are hopeful though. Perhaps the "feast" of healing has begun, though not apparent yet.

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    1. Personally I only recognize the recovery of old hurt long after it has been healed. Then suddenly it dawns to me: I feel good!

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  2. I truly hope that watching your new little puppy gambolling around in the future will help to heal your heart, Ellen xx

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    1. Thanks you Halcyon. I am sure he will. Only two more days until we can bring him home :)

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  3. Hi Ellen! It's very interesting the analysis you do of this card. Your message is supporting, inspiring and very positive. Thank you! A kiss and Muchas Estrellas my dear friend!

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    1. Thank you LM!
      Hugs and many stars to you too

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  4. Wow, that's a powerful card and your description makes it even more so Ellen. It's what I call the hole in the soul. I wrote about this very thing in my art blog. http://catherinemeyersartist.blogspot.ca/2014/09/the-hole-in-soul.html

    So happy you are soon to get you new lil' fur person!!! <3

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  5. How fortunate you are with a house surrounded by nature
    I can relate to your story very much. Although I always have had friends I was the happiest when I was with myself, playing with my dolls, reading books and filling up sketchbooks and that never changed. I am now ten years on my own and although I miss my husband very, very much, I feel like I am at the same time finding myself again.
    I've read the entire post and it resonated lot with me. I think we are lot a like :)
    Hugs

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