For today I
have drawn the Emperor from the Joie de Vivre tarot. This card is all about
authority, leadership, structure and masculine, active energy.
Pauline’s
story is as charming as ever:
“The
confident and structured emperor, Eminence, has earned his wisdom through
experience. His ram's antlers and warrior headgear are a reminder of his great
leadership and authority. His dragon companions, Order and Conviction, stand by
him in the coordination of systematic plans. In a position of strength,
Eminence is clothed in sunlight gold, symbolic of growth and comfort. He's an
ideal source of advice due to his scrutinizing ability to see through the most
clever of disguises. He is defender of the vulnerable, and rejector of the
lazy.”
This is a
very apt card for me because yesterday
we had to go to the vet with our dog Tara for an X ray of her longs. The results
were not conclusive. The vet wasn't sure if it was a pneumonia or metastases
from an unknown tumor. She took some blood to investigate it further and today
we will know more. I have the strong feeling I have to be the one in charge and
be strong for all of us because in worst case scenario decisions to be made. Although I have to say M behaved
very imperial too while she was calming down our dog in the X ray room. Only after
we came home she showed how she really felt. Also I see the vet in this card
who was professional, thorough and wise enough to seek council with one of her colleagues.
I will keep
you updated in the comments.
We just had a call from the vet and it wasn't good news. This afternoon our dog is goign to be euthanised because she has a large tumor and many metastases
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Awww (((((Ellen))))) So so sorry to hear this :(. It so painful to have to say goodbye to our sweet and loyal beasties. I am thinking of you and your girls <3 and will say prayers for you <3
DeleteOh Ellen, I am sorry for you and the girls! I've had to do this twice, and I sobbed openly both times. I know people will say it is for the best, and that you are preventing her from much suffering, but it is still such a hard thing to go through. Gentle hugs to all of you and sweet Tara. One thing that helped me after going through this was writing my memories down in a blog post to honor our dog.
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I'm so sorry for this loss! I send loving thoughts and wishes your way, and to your dear puppy.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry Ellen - our pets have unique places in our lives. I am thinking of you all and sending many healing thoughts and wrapping you in hugs xx
ReplyDeleteHi Ellen.. my thoughts and prayers are with you and your loved ones today.. I dropped by to read your blog and as usual your insight into this card is spot on. But so sorry to hear of your news and such a painful decision.. my heart goes out to you
ReplyDeleteSo sorry, Ellen - sending you and your daughters love and healing .....xx
ReplyDeleteMy dearest friends,
ReplyDeleteI want to thank you all for your loving thoughts and kind comments. I hope you don't mind my answering you all together in one comment this time. We are feeling so sad and empty. The house is silent and I miss to hear Tara's snore. I am devastated both for the loss of Tara but also for the pain of my girls especially of M's because Tara was her window to the outside world. With her in her life she was able to cope with everything. Tare was her strength and comfort. I don't know when I feel like blogging again. Perhaps I will start by leaving you comments first when I feel up to it
Hugs
For Tara:
DeleteNAMO SUGATA RATNA SHIKHIN
Honor to the one who has gone to bliss, the jewel deserving of offerings.
(((Ellen and girls)))
Dear Ellen, I've just read this post and comments. I know how it feels - the death of a pet which is part of your family leaves you wordless. I send you and your daughters my thoughts.
ReplyDeleteDear Ellen, BIG HUGS to you and both the girls, too! Know that it is fine to feel your feelings, even when they are painful. While you may need to be the solid security your girls require, you also deserve support. I hope you can find it, here or elsewhere. And know, we will be here for you when you want to blog again.
ReplyDeleteMore hugs, Kxxx
Ohhh my dear friend, I'm very very sorry!!! Pets are members of the family, for me. My support with this sad new. I send you and the girls a big hug and kisses.
ReplyDeleteAgain a heartfelt thank you for these wonderful comments They mean a lot to me and to my girls.
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