What a fitting card I've drawn for myself
today: the Nine of Swords from the Anna K Tarot. Being a rather anxious worrier
myself I can often relate very easily to this card but today even more because yesterday evening I was feeling
down and hurt and I had trouble sleeping. When
you look at the girl in the depiction you’ll see she doesn't even have room to
lay down in her bed because of all the swords are sticking in her mattress. Sometimes I wonder if I expect too much
of others but I felt left out and forgotten and it did hurt and I felt sad
about it. And then I find it difficult
not to wonder about the why’s and I worry
about how deal with this issue; what is the right thing to do. Should I forget
about it and act if nothing has happened or should I share my feelings and risk
to be completely misinterpreted or brushed aside.
So I ask what is the best
solution if I worry too much and can’t stop my train of thoughts. And I got the
Seven of Cups. This card is shouting to me: “you should practice what you
preach”
Last Tuesday I had written the post: “a thousand gifts”. This was all about
how to be grateful and see the beauty and wonders of life even when you’re down
or in a stressful situation. And look at me two days later. Needing the Seven
of Cups to remind me of my own resolution to practice gratitude and list my gifts J.
So for today I am going to pick up my journal and write down the
content of those Seven Cups!
“It is through
gratitude for the present moment that the spiritual dimension of life opens up.” Eckhart Tolle
I have to follow the thread backwards to see why I was hurt - whether it was the intentional words/actions of someone or if it was simply my expectations. Very often I find that the other person was not purposefully hurtful, but rather it was my expectations of what they should have done that caused me pain. I think listing your gifts is a wonderful way to shake off those feelings!
ReplyDeleteThis is a very insightful and clear solution Thank you so much for this . It is very helpful and yes if I follow my thread backwards it is all about my expectations. there's is there is no question of ill intent at all. I've addressed the issue and luckily everything is fine now :)
DeleteI think what's beautiful here as well, is that you are acknowledging your sadness, and that's a true thing. Enjoy those cups!
ReplyDeleteA true thing and a new thing indeed. Thank you Margo for pointing this out to me :)
DeleteI kept a gratitude journal for three years. I stopped writing them down then because the thankfulness had become part of me. It quite changed how I see my world and finally rooted out the negativity. The surprise was how many things there are to be thankful about. I started out with the big three, Rob/Home/Health but after about a week of that I was embarrassed that I couldn't see beyond that. Then it became a kind of game to find things to be grateful for. The found coin, the green light, fresh water...
ReplyDeleteAs a long time insomniac this card always brings that to mind too. Amazing what I can worry about in the night that doesn't even hit the radar in the daylight...humans...we're goofy.
Yes we can be so "creative" at night. I've said once that the fears, you've gathered at night in the moonlight, should be taken with you into the morning and shown to the sun :)
DeleteI've been keeping a gratitude journal of an on depending on my thankfulness level :)Nowadays I love to be mindful and attentive for things to write down in the evening
Hi my Dear Friend, I think we all have these up and downs, and some days we are more vulnerable than others (it happens to me). Sometimes I ask to myself if I expect too much from others too.
ReplyDeleteDon't forget about it, try to to talk about this matter with the person; talking brings clarity in all relantionships and it's liberating. You will be well interpreted; and you'll be well. :)
Ah! tonight don't drink "our beloved cup of coffee"...have some tea :) to sleep better! A super big kiss and Muchas Estrellas!!!!!
Ah you are so sweet!! Tea.. yes I will do that :)
DeleteI've sorted things out and I was happy to be able to share my feelings. Everything is okay now. It was such a big relief to both of us
A BIG Hug and many stars stars
I'm so happy everything is well!!! Regarding tea...well I love coffee to death! but since time ago I drink tea at night when watching a movie, and I sleep better...specially if it's a Russell Crowe film! :D I love this man!!! Another super big kiss!
DeleteWho wouldn't! lol
DeleteI am having some tea right beside me now thanks to you :D
It's no coffee but it is a good second choice <3
I will share this Ellen sometimes I can wear the feelings of others, because I am a hypersensitive type. When someone is in a 'mood' even if it's a stranger I pick it up. Not like I used to because I don't allow it to bother me like I used to.
ReplyDeleteWhen I feel this way with someone I love whom I think has hurt me. I ask myself how important is this? If it's something I can't get past, I need to talk it out with that person or with someone or write it out. Other wise, if they have done something to hurt me and I get a resentment and put it in my little gunnersack carrying it around with me. I hurt myself and I am not being fair to that person either. They can't read my mind, and most times they don't even know what they've done. Sometimes I feel like one big emotion and I have to get out of that state of mind, and go express some kindness to another. Or just have a good cry, because I need the release, like laughing.
I happy you could acknowledge your feelings and then talk about them <3
Thank you my friend for sharing your thoughts. It seems the more you love people the more they are able to hurt your feelings and/or don't live up to your expectations. I am ever so glad we could share our feelings to one another. It was hard and sometimes painful but now the air is cleared and we feel both ever so relieved. This was so much better than bottling things up until they explode
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