This week I am working with a “card of the week”, namely the Five of Cups. I am not quite sure if this was such a wise experiment. Although I do not believe this card was a foreboding to a depressing week, I do think it is possible to be influenced by the energy of this card.
And so after working a few days with the Five of Cups I think I was rather susceptible for a not so pleasant mood swing caused by some family matters. I felt rather down and I didn’t feel like doing anything at all. I wasn’t planning to blog today either but then I pulled “Remembrance” from The Gaia Oracle and when I read the guidebook, I knew this was the perfect card for me today and I felt called to write this post anyway. The keywords of this card are: Resurfacing of past feelings and emotions.
And a very fitting part from the guidebook is: “This card signifies that past feelings and emotions are resurfacing from deep within you and you may find yourself on an emotional roller coaster over the coming days. Do not fight it, this is all fine. It is important to occasionally remember and honor your past, for it is part of you and part of your soul’s journey.”
Now this is exactly how I felt these past two days. Sometimes memories come flooding back and can overwhelm you and although the first instinctual reaction might be to run away to safe and higher grounds, there is actually nothing to be afraid of. They are just memories and yes they can cause grief and pain again and again but this experience also signifies that you are not done with them yet. Each time when you get washed over by these memories, it will be different and perhaps a little bit less scary. And remember the waves always will bring you back to the seashore again, where you can bask in the sunlight to dry up and warm yourself….. and rest
“I bless my past and I am grateful for every experience,
for every experience has helped me expand my understanding of love.
My life is forever unfolding as it should; the past, the present and the future are one.
I honor and respect my feelings and emotional, for they are part of my story.”