Well to be honest, I didn't expect to get this
card after yesterday’s Dreamer Ten. But today we've got Dreamer Three (the
Three of Swords) from the Tarot of the Sidhe. We see a Sidhe woman with her
heart ripped out. It is torn apart and eaten by three black ravens. The three
trees which are rooted in her skirt are bare. With her hair she is connected to
the blood red clouds and behind her a large sun is rising behind the mountains.
She is fully merged with her surroundings yet she is heart - and soulless.
Every time
when I get this card I wonder: What is eating away my soul? Which grief and/or
pain have I not fully embraced yet?
So often
grief and sadness are cloaked in anger, fear, guilt or regret. Those feelings
can fester deep and feed off your joy
and energy. Only when we can dig deeper, beyond the surface and dare to feel
the pain, we can heal and move on. It can be a scary and lonely road because
when one pain is discovered a lot of the others might wake up too and this
can be a very overwhelming experience. So it is good
to know the morning sun will always lead you home again. The relief and the
related relaxation will make it so worth your while to embark on this journey.
“The heart of Dream is torn in three
Leaving a hole where the whole should be
The blessed ravens feast on sorrow
That the light may bring a fairer morrow”
(Emily Carding)
You are so right that the sadness can be cloaked as something else; for me it was often anger because that felt more powerful. Of course the "hole" was never made whole until I figured that out. The last two lines of Carding's poem are hopeful though. Perhaps the "feast" of healing has begun, though not apparent yet.
ReplyDeletePersonally I only recognize the recovery of old hurt long after it has been healed. Then suddenly it dawns to me: I feel good!
DeleteI truly hope that watching your new little puppy gambolling around in the future will help to heal your heart, Ellen xx
ReplyDeleteThanks you Halcyon. I am sure he will. Only two more days until we can bring him home :)
DeleteHi Ellen! It's very interesting the analysis you do of this card. Your message is supporting, inspiring and very positive. Thank you! A kiss and Muchas Estrellas my dear friend!
ReplyDeleteThank you LM!
DeleteHugs and many stars to you too
Wow, that's a powerful card and your description makes it even more so Ellen. It's what I call the hole in the soul. I wrote about this very thing in my art blog. http://catherinemeyersartist.blogspot.ca/2014/09/the-hole-in-soul.html
ReplyDeleteSo happy you are soon to get you new lil' fur person!!! <3
How fortunate you are with a house surrounded by nature
ReplyDeleteI can relate to your story very much. Although I always have had friends I was the happiest when I was with myself, playing with my dolls, reading books and filling up sketchbooks and that never changed. I am now ten years on my own and although I miss my husband very, very much, I feel like I am at the same time finding myself again.
I've read the entire post and it resonated lot with me. I think we are lot a like :)
Hugs