For today I've picked the Five and the Two of Cups from the Original Rider Waite Tarot face up, for they represent so perfectly how we are experiencing some conflicting feelings these last few days.
Saturday
morning we went for our lovely fluffy Jofee and we are enjoying him so very, very much. He
is bringing so much life and joy into our home. Therefore it surprised us a lot
that out of the blue there were feelings of intense sadness because how could
he ever take Tara’s place. Tara who was embedded in our family, who needed less
than a word to understand us and knew exactly what we
wanted.
With Jofee,
we have to start all over from scratch, teaching him everything and somehow
this feels very overwhelming, especially in the evening, when we are so tired. All
this felt very much like the Five of Cups. Focusing too much on what we have lost instead of on what we were given: a new chance to be happy again with our
little puppy.
Gradually
we are moving from this card to the Two of Cups. Getting to know and appreciate one and other without
expectations and comparisons to former love. In other words falling in love all
over again. We are making new memories with our little fellow and love grows
quickly stronger, deeper and we are beginning to forge unbreakable bonds. Our hearts will grow the more we love. There is room enough
for everyone
I think what you are experiencing is a part of any grief - that feeling that you have somehow betrayed Tara's memory by bringing in Jofee. But in a sense, Tara once was Jofee - longing and waiting to be adopted and loved. I think Tara would understand. And I imagine Jofee will learn quickly, so hang in there! Hugs of support to all of you!
ReplyDeleteI, and perhaps even more M, needed to hear this. Thank you for your kind and supportive words Bev.
DeleteWhat you write here is so true and of course we know this deep down but to read it in your words makes it more real and true and is helping us a lot so thank you again
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I wish you a peaceful adjustment to your new little pup! WHat I think is so nice about your draw is that we often talk about the 5 of Cups as sadness/mourning, and the need to focus on those 2 cups still standing. Here you have actually pulled the 2 of Cups! It's a really nice symbol that you will get through this sometimes-sad transition, and things will fall into place eventually. Peace to you!
ReplyDeleteThank you Olivia. We do trust everything will work out fine. As you say the transition is a bit sad now, but after some time to adjust we will be okay. Perhaps it is a good thing this grief came to the surface instead of being tucked away
DeleteDear Ellen,
ReplyDeleteIt is certainly understandable why you are all have these deep conflicted feelings.
You have not betrayed Tara, and she will never be replaced. You honour her, in that you miss her so much, but had to let her go. She would certainly understand and be glad. It's all process, that takes time.
To quote Julian of Norwich, All shall be well, and all shall be well and all manner of thing shall be well.”
Beautiful quote and thank you for that. although I haven't had time to blog today, we are doing a lot better for which I am so grateful
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This is such a good example of the cycles in tarot, turning around, and around again.
ReplyDeleteBecause you feel this way, you are never betraying your lovely friend Tara.You are just giving another beautiful chance to another life. You are all so caring and gave her a wonderful life of love.
Thank you Steve. for these kind words. Jofee is a lovely dog and we do love him so much. And in a way he is helping us grief for which we are grateful
DeleteAs Olivia wrote above, I think it's really significant that it's two cups that are left standing in the Five. To me this is saying 'take the time you need to mourn what you've lost, and when you're ready to turn around, there is new love waiting for you'. And then there it is in the Two of Cups!
ReplyDeleteI've just got a dog too. I've looked after Billie for a long time but I officially adopted her two weeks ago and now she lives with me full-time. It's a learning curve alright.. :)
Learning curve is a great word to describe this process. How lovely your Billie is officially yours now. I hope you will be very happy together
DeleteThis reminds me of when I posted about worrying that I might love our new baby more or less than our first boy. A wise woman (that would be you, Ellen) told me there was no limit on love, that the more you gave, the more there was, so there is always enough for all! (((big hugs)))
ReplyDeleteAnd often you need a good friend to remind you of your own words when you need them
DeleteThank you Kerry