Today’s card is Dreamer Ten (Ten of Swords) from the Tarot of the Sidhe. This is a very dreadful card: We see a sword, which pierces the sun and causing it to bleed heavily, a gushing stream of blood which floods everything in its way. People are drowning in blood and trees are falling from the hills: Everything is dying. The two eyes in the hills are red like blood. The only thing positive to this card is the yellow light of the sun.
Although a scary and depressing card, it is a very apt one for me. As is the case often, I am inclined to over think the unthinkable. So is my spirituality (as many of you probably will know) a perpetual dance between doubt and knowing, finding and searching, intuition and thinking. After a reasonable time of inner balance, the thinking part is getting too loud and is pressing too much for attention. This is awaking my doubts and thus disturbing the balance. My primary instinct is more thinking, more reading, searching for more information. But this only causes doubt and insecurity to grow stronger. This card is telling me to let go of all my thoughts and convictions, of trying to puzzle everything in a neat structure. When I can manage to do so, the sun will come out again and will warm and illuminate my heart where God(dess) can be found.
So all must bleed and melt away
Before the dawning of the day
The tree must fall in land forlorn
This dream must die to be reborn