Nine of Vessels - Generosity

For today I've drawn from the Wildwood tarot a card with a whole different energy than yesterday’s Seven of Vessels. It is the Nine of Vessels (aka The Nine of Cups, the traditional wish card in the Rider Waite tarot). In this card, as in the Nine of Cups, a man is depicted with his vessels. In the Nine of Vessels it is not so much about enjoying yourself on your own, being content and perhaps even being smug. In this card there is an ongoing stream of inward and outward energy going on: Giving and receiving love. The keyword generosity is self-explanatory. As we all know: When you’ll give you will receive. The person in the middle is glowing like a sun, he is a conduit for abundant kindness, love and wisdom. He is sharing it selflessly and out of the goodness of his heart. And he is receiving with grace and openness the blessings of the Divine in any form whatsoever without expecting it.

This card is has a difficult message to me. I understand it perfectly but acting like this is hard. For me it is all about finding the balance between giving and receiving and being brave enough to let go of any expectations. I've given too much once and it was a hard lesson for me. I am scared to be too generous again. When I can remove  the “too” from the equation it will be doable: To give Loving Kindness ,to stay aware of my boundaries and  to trust I will be replenished.