Yesterday I've become aware of my need to do some exploring on my relationship with the Divine. What do I believe? How do I relate to God(dess) and what do I expect from such a relationship? What is my part in it? How free do I feel in developing my own practice? So many questions arise when you start contemplating your beliefs. Yesterday I said I didn't want to hit the books and the internet right away. Instead I wanted to go within and delve first in my inner wisdom and own convictions before I start reading.
To trigger my intuition I've picked up my very first deck: The Rider Waite Tarot (Pocket) It felt so familiar to shuffle the small cards. I asked what advise the cards had for me on how to approach this spiritual quest. And I've got The High Priestess. That was a little personal miracle for me. I haven’t pulled this card in months. It shows me exactly what I intended to do: go within, use my intuition to unravel my insecurity about believing in and connecting with God(dess). So my next question was how should I unlock my inner wisdom? The priestess is sitting quietly; almost like waiting for something. The veil is hiding the waters of her unconscious. So what do I have to do? Open the book, take down the veil???
And I pulled the Ace of cups. If She is out there She is surely communicating loud and clear. Just open your self up to Love and be ready to receive.
It is so easy and we make it so complicated. We don’t need books and cards and statues and amulets. All that matters is: sitting quietly, doing nothing and drink from that wonderful cup once in a while.
Every sip could be an insight in Her essence and we can show our understanding by giving this part of Her a name.* For instance If you feel her waiting patiently for you, you can name Her: Lady of unlimited patience. Be mindful how that name feels to you. In that way you can come up with so many names. One by one you‘ll paint a picture in your mind of how she shows Herself to you. In the same way you can do this with collage. Gather all kinds of pictures and words which remind you of an aspect of Her and put it all together on one piece of paper. I hope that this will help me to discover who God(dess) is to me*( Inspired by the video from Pagypstian: "Forming your own Image of Deity")