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Yesterday was a bleh day and I am afraid today isn't going to be much better. (self fulfilling prophecy???) I am tired, stressed out
and often very quickly irritated/angry. I snap to my daughters, and feel bad
and guilty about it at the same time.
Where is
that positive woman who was so eager to
start the new year? Who did the journaling and came up with all the goals, resolutions
and promises to herself?
This is me
too. Not the best of me but it’s still me. Look at this angry guy on his fiery
dragon ready to strike. But who? What is making him so angry and anxious? In other
decks you see the challengers, but here they are hidden. Perhaps he doesn't
know them either. I am curious what would happen if he would stop fighting; would
the others also quit? Would they conquer him or worse? Perhaps they would simply vanish. Anger begets
anger. fear begets fear and so on. So why not vice versa?
Even as
simple as writing about this feeling is helping. (Do you notice the difference between the beginning and the end of this post? That's why I love journaling! I don’t have to dig deep and
try to discover the other six wands. I just have to let go and relax. Give up
and breath. Wasn't that my theme for this moon?????
I got this way yesterday. My husband was stressed (his mother's mind and health is failing fast) and he popped off at me, hurting my feelings. I was all huffy until I realized what was going on with him, but to defuse my anger, I had to listen to some music, do some reading and some journaling. Doing what I love tends to smooth my ruffled feathers pretty quickly. :)
ReplyDeleteMost of the time that works for me too. Only when I cling to long to my anger/fear it gets stuck somehow without me knowing what is really happening. Luckily I feel already better now
DeleteI am happy you have your own range of coping mechanisms too ( which are very similar to mine)
I had a moment of this today, as well. An email angered me, and I got trapped in thinking about the ways I could respond in person when I saw them, if they brought it up again. In the end, I exercised, and when I actually faced the person it was fine. I didn't say anything, and they were civil, too :)
ReplyDeleteGlad the journaling helped, Ellen, and hope you find the time and inclination to breath and relax.
Yes I did and it was just in time because my youngest did need my help and support once more
DeleteShe's very lucky to have you there for her! I'm glad to hear you also managed to take care of yourself, too, though :)
DeleteThanks. I am happy to say today looks a lot brighter :D
DeleteA huffy day for me yesterday too. In the end I sneaked off to the bedroom to listen to some music, and to browse a few coursework bits and bobs. I feel better today and hope to get out for a walk this afternoon. Being close to nature usually sorts me out.
ReplyDeleteWonderful that you were able to return to your theme for the new moon and put it to good use. Sometimes a bit of breathing space is all we need :)
Yes to distract your thoughts and focus on more pleasant things is always a good remedy
DeleteI am glad too say today is a lot better for me too. My card of the day seems to agree with me (Star) lol