Four of Cups - Snap out of it!

Today’s card is the Four of Cups from the Smith-Waite Centennial Tarot. This card is all about discontent, boredom and lack of interest in about everything. Look how he has closed himself off from all outside suggestions on how to feel better. If we are getting stuck in this energy it can easily lead to self-pity and even depression.

It has been quite a while since I really felt like blogging or in doing anything whatsoever and this card depicts this feeling perfectly well,. Yes, I have been very busy moving my husband to a temporary care home because the house where he was living before is getting a rebuild. This event was physical and emotional draining for me. It left me with little energy for myself and it eventually got the best of me. I know all too well this kind of thinking can easily become habitual and self-sustaining. I knew something had to change but it felt like I wasn’t able to do so. Until this morning, when M told me I had to become responsible for my own wellbeing and to be willing to do the things which would make me feel better. She can be quite persuasive when she feels it is necessary. So I got out of my chair, took a shower, went out for some groceries and started blogging. I feel like a different woman now. I have flipped a switch and I have snapped out of this funk.  Thank you, my dear girl, for a firm kick in the butt.

Four of Vessels – Boredom or doing No-thing?

Today we have another Card from the suit of Vessels from the Wildwood Tarot: the Four of Vessels – Boredom. When I read this caption it's giving me instantly a negative feeling. The guidebook speaks about “emotionally frozen and disconnected”. I was raised with the notion that boredom is a waste of time and energy. Maybe this card can also mean something else. In my new moon reading I've got No-Thingness as my embrace card. Isn't this exactly what this woman is doing: No-Thing. Behind her back there are two large vessels with vine like plants. They are forming an arch over the entrance of the cave. Two smaller vessels are watering these plants. The woman is paying no attention. Did she came out of this dark cave or does she has to turn around to enter it. At the moment she doesn't seem to care. She is just sitting there and doing nothing. Personally for me this is an art in itself. Doing nothing and watching the world go by. Since the Universe has a way to fill emptiness, this phase will pass eventually. She will get up and go from doing No-Thing to doing Some-Thing. But for now she needs to reassess herself. How does she feel? what does she want or need? The risk of getting up to soon and chasing after the next whim is living a life filled with restless superficial distractions. So I will practice “the art of Boredom” for a while; doing nothing, to regain my focus and some inner peace.
“Sitting quietly, doing nothing, Spring comes, and the grass grows, by itself.” Zen Proverb

Four of Vessel and Ace of Bows: leaping out of limbo

Yesterday was a difficult day. Last Friday, M. had learned from her doctor she had to have an ultrasound of a lump under her yaw which has been sitting there for about six weeks. And we all know what everybody is  thinking, when a lump is in the picture. Whenever one of my kids is not healthy and I don’t know what is wrong with them, I worry a lot and my anxiety tends to get overwhelming. Gradually I get sucked in a kind of limbo, where all I can do is wait, hope and pray and desperately seek for distraction in gaming or watching TV-series. In limbo tarot shouldn't be allowed. The cards speak only about gloom and doom and I am forgetting the fact I don’t do predictions. But then the moment came we were at the hospital and the doctor spoke the liberating words:” It’s nothing serious”. I barely could keep myself from kissing the man. We celebrated life with a large ice-cream. When I came home I felt so good, happy and relieved.

Wildwood Tarot

This morning I looked at the last two cards I had pulled yesterday before we went to the hospital. And no, the Ace of Bows isn't a laser or radiotherapy and the Four of Vessels isn't a waiting room in a hospital. When I look at those two cards today  I see myself sitting in limbo not knowing what to feel; “Sickness of the soul” and “emotionally frozen” the book is calling it. But then there is this Ace of Bows,this spark of life,which encourages us to stand up and start living again. It is almost like a rebirth.