Saturday, September 19, 2015

Learn how to feel No and to discover your Yes

My card for today is Judgement from the Tarot of the Wild Unknown:
Living in the shadows. Overcome by doubt and not knowing. Being one of many. "Act like everybody else, then all will be fine", I hear in the back of my head. In the dark you often bump your head: Against thick walls or social agreements.
Sacred Rebels Oracle She feels, she knows, Wild Unknown Tarot Judgement

How long before I realize that there is a way out, into the light. A way to freedom and to the memory of who I wanted to be in the first place. To escape the pressure of always being nice and wanting to do everyone a favor expect myself. When will my wings be strong enough to carry me up and when will I know who I really want to be?
And then I pulled: “She feels, she knows”, from the Sacred Rebels Oracle:
This card ensures us we already know deep down inside who we are supposed to be. It tells us it is of the utmost importance to feel what you truly want; to listen to the signals of your body and your mind if you are being pushed aside by the blackbirds in the first card. Listen to the No in your muscles and learn to recognize your Yes in your breathing out. 
How long has it been since I've wondered what I really want. What will make me happy and filled with joy? I feel that at the same time of my spiritual Tower experience I’ve been starting to question many other aspects of my life too. I see this as a huge and rare opportunity to "discover" myself all over again. To find out what makes my true self sing.
Recently I started meditating again. That feels really good. I also want to dwell more on the things I'm thankful for and which make me happy. Not just writing down items to fill my gratitude list. Among others things I've been enjoying working more with my crystals and taking little naps when I feel tired. 
And so I continue on my path like everyone else, day by day and moment by moment.
Hugs

16 comments:

  1. We are on the same page today. Staying stationary out of fear or lethargy because it is the familiar...go ahead, act out something you've been wishing you could do.

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    1. It is hard but each small step is so rewarding!!

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  2. I see the woman in the Oracle card gently contemplating the qualities and images in Judgement. This is a good teaching for all of us, isn't it, that transformation begins first with awareness. The small steps are the grace-filled steps. Blessings on your feet, Ellen, as they journey in wholeness, step by perfect step.

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    1. Thank you Rose yes we have to be aware of what it is before we can discover what is wholesome and what not To discern what we take with us and what we can leave behind. And I am sure I want to travel light :)

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  3. Sounds like you've heard the call loud enough to rise out of the social flock and find your own way by listening to your heart. Sometimes it's the small moments that teach us more than the big moments. :)

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    1. But all these small moments can sometime feel like a big boom to me :D
      And then it quiets down and I can listen to the whispers of my heart

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  4. This resonates with me! It ties into all I've been hearing about this time being of about the return of the feminine energy. I have had the book " Women who run with the wolves" by Clarissa Pinkola and never read it but it has been silently calling me. I love you IG account Ellen. I am happy to read your blog too. ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿป

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    1. Hi Diane. Thank you for your kind words and for visiting my blog. It means a lot to me. "Women who run with wolves" is a great book which I can highly recommend. Each time I read in it, I discover new things. I hope you will enjoy it just as much as I do

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    2. Diane I hope you do read this book by Clarissa Pinkola Estes. It is a life changing powerful book. It changed my life, and my art work was directly and is still influenced by it.

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    1. Thank you Carla! It is hard though because I am used to making things "right" again as soon as possible:)

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  6. Ellen I love these two cards together.

    Little by slowly is what my spiritual advisor once told me. That was wise advise because I've had to work hard on being patient, especially with myself.

    Most of us are too good for our own good. It's the best kind of new found freedom to know who you are and love yourself because of who you are not in spite of who you are. <3

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  7. ha ha "work hard on being patient, especially with myself." this the story of my life. It is so easy to take card of others Now it is time to learn to take time for me :)
    Hugs

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  9. I remember and never forgot this when I was in grade 7. We had a geography teacher and we, well not me, but our class certain ones were really pretty much out of control. I sat in the front and when she'd get frustrated I would be the only one I think, to hear her say quietly to herself, " Patience is a virtue." She sure had that! And so, I try to always remember her example of patience when I feel like I'm loosing mine. Much of my impatience stems from feeling like I'm not in control of people, places and things. I start reacting instead of rationally responding. And I am not in control of anyone or things but myself, that's a big enough challenge!

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  10. I love the idea of you working with crystals and taking little naps - sounds gorgeous! I managed to meditate this morning for the first time in a while, and it felt good, too :)

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