Since the beginning of July I have been regularly posting pictures on Instagram and I am really enjoying it. Sometimes I make pictures of my daily draws, of Jofee, of my dinner: just random snippets of my life. But to be honest the reason for making my IG account public was the . Then August came and I participated in the Listersgottalist Challenge. And although I didn’t feel that great, I thought it could be healing to do something creative every day. Well I didn’t finish it because it was too much pressure to create something "perfect"on a daily base but I was highly tempted to join one or two of the several tarot challenges for September on IG and then I realized I was fooling myself. I was diverting myself from what is my main priority right now: regaining my spiritual and emotional balance. So why would I invite intentionally more stress and anxiety into my life. Now is the time for self love, for going within with compassion and kindness and hoping to rekindle that flickering light of faith in, and connection with God
And then I saw the YouTube video of Kelly Ann from The Four Queens about Self love September. Again I was tempted to commit myself to this project. To buy a new journal, to find myself a “reminder item”, watch the videos, read the blog posts and do the assignments like "a good girl".
And then I got it. I really am tempted to fill my life with “noise”, even with “spiritual cloaked” noise but altogether it is still noise for me right now.
The best gift of self love I can give myself this month is to post pictures on IG if I want to, to write blog posts if I have something to say and to love myself with every breath I take and with everything I do or say.
And to be FREE!
"Do not follow the ideas of others but learn to listen to the voice within yourself." (Dogen)