Just before I went to visit my mother, I pulled
for myself the Six of Cups from the Goddess Tarot. Although this deck has a lot
of Rider Waite based imagery, this card seems to lack the two children where one child
offers the other one flowers. Here we see a house in the distance and six cups,
neatly arranged and filled with soft purple flowers. It is a card of memories:
Of reminiscing about a time when everything was fine and life was simple: Of remembering
our childhood. Whenever I am with my mother I feel often like a child again. In
her own way she still takes care of me, simple because she cares for me unconditionally.
And that feels safe and it gives me a chance to completely relax. I didn't know I needed this so much until I
got there. I loved listening to her stories and even now after so many years
some of them where still new to me. This card radiates peace and quiet. Everything has it’s place and
time there, just like with my mother. Her house is clean and organized in contrary
to mine especially with our puppy running around messing with his toys and stuff.
So when I came home I felt a bit overwhelmed and I had some difficulty to adjust
to our everyday life. Even the idea of
starting to blog again wasn't appealing. It felt more like a chore than something
I love to do so much. So I started to leave some comments here and there and
that felt good. I know eventually I will adapt and fit in again. Today is
already so much easier than yesterday and gradually I am getting used to our own way of living which I do love a lot J
“Grown means nothing to a mother. A child is a child. They get bigger, older,
but grown? In a mother’s heart you will always be her baby.”
I was speaking with a fellow who went for a silent weekend retreat; when he got home to his family, he said he felt like he'd been dropped into a war zone! I imagine you are experiencing much the same thing. :)
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad you had such a nice, restful visit with your mom. When I look at the flowers on the wall and those in the foreground, it makes me think of bringing home some of that peaceful mindset with you. Good to see you around again!
Ha ha, a war zone That is an apt comparison! Yes it is very important to keep some of this peace and quiet tucked inside for myself when I need it and maybe I can cultivate it for the coming weeks
DeleteIt is good to be back!
Ellen! We've missed you! I've missed you!
ReplyDeleteI can certainly relate to trying to adapt to being back home. I went to retreats for many years and when I came back home...when I was with my ex or living with mum. Ooo it was a major adjustment and I felt depressed even, wishing I could still be in that safe cosy bubble. But I know life isn't like this, and so I had to find that safe cosy place within myself.
It's why I write, read daily meditations. Living alone makes it easier for me to find solitude. But sometimes that can even be a problem. Then I have to get out and see some friends and socialize. This is a lovely post. We all need that mothering regardless of our age. You are blessed to still have your mum. <3 I sure do miss mine <3 Big Hugs to you Ellen.
I am glad to be back and I've missed you too. Mothering is an gift we can give ourselves too my friend. It is something I had to learn for myself because my mother wasn't always able to give that to me. Luckily she is doing better now and we can enjoy each others company.
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Love what you say about a mother always being a mother, and glad you had such a peaceful, restful, joyful time with yours. I remember feeling that way, every time I came back from holiday. And yet, within a day or two, I had shrugged back into my normal way of life like an old, comfy coat. Wishing you much joy back with your girls and Jofee.
ReplyDeleteHugs, Kerry
Thanks Kerry Things have returned to normal already and inside there is still a little cozy quiet corner for myself
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