Tuesday, September 27, 2016

The Sun - How to get real

Since yesterday I have been thinking a lot about how to become more authentic and true to who I really am. This was brought about by several events during the day: reading Carolyn’s post about the Inner Child, reaching the chapter about Authenticity in  “The gifts of imperfection” by Brene Brown and becoming painfully aware of my “obligation” to be creative.
All this is strongly encouraging me to find out what it is I really want, as opposed to what I think I should want. Life can be so much more than ticking of boxes, even if they represent enjoyable activities.
 I have to admit I do find it a bit scary; maybe I don’t want to know what I really want or who I really am but then again I don’t like this feeling either.  
One thing which is in my opinion crucial to touch on this deeper layer is to live more mindfully and to make a full stop when a choice has to be made. This way we have the time to listen to our inner wisdom and to our inner child. I strongly belief that both of them are beyond pleasing and pretending.
Also I think tarot can be a great tool to trigger deeper buried desires and needs, especially when you read  the cards purely intuitively. So I have pulled two cards for today:
Raven's Prophecy Tarot Queen of Wands
What do I think I want? Queen of Wands
I think I want to be a passionate, outgoing, confident and creative woman. I want to speak up and to be heard. I want to be unafraid of failure as well as of success. I want tot breath fire with my words. 
As lovely and juicy this all may  sound maybe this is not really who I am at this moment and also not who I aspire to be for now.
What do I really want? The Sun
I do like the become more self aware and to shed some light over the shadowy parts of my personality. My inner child seems to be in dire need of some sunshine lately. I want to learn more about who I am and to see this as the beginning of a journey within, which will bring me more wisdom, joy and happiness than pretending to be something I am not. Also I want to keep safe everything I learn along the way safe and protect it from old habitual thinking patterns. So I will keep the light of the Sun close to my heart and let it illuminate my way.

“Authenticity is the daily practice of letting go of who we think we’re supposed to be and embracing who we are” Brene Brown

14 comments:

  1. That's such a good question. And perfect for asking insight from the cards. I think I also fall in the trap of following what I think I want. But in truth...sometimes what I think I want doesn't even make me happy.

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    1. That was for me the sign that what I was doing had to change. I hope you'll find your happy place soon :)

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  2. that queen of Wands makes me think of all the times I've spoke without thinking.

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    1. I don't think she ever thinks twice before she says something :)

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  3. What a triggering (in a good way!) post. I've been struggling with such thoughts myself lately. Thank you for sharing, I'll definitely try these questions out.

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    1. I am glad you get something out of this. I was not quite sure if I should share this feeling of mine but now I am glad I did :)

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  4. Wow, those two cards say a lot! The Queen of Wands is so full of energy and a need to fulfill a purpose, the Sun (especially the RWS version) seems to be simply about finding joy and clarity.

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    1. The sun card energy is so much more relaxed in comparison to this passionate queen. It feels like I have been given the opportunity to shed her skin and breath out :)

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  5. More Wand energy and a double jolt of expresso with The Sun. Ellen I think something truly wonderful is about to burst forth in your Life. So much energy, have lots of fun with it. With all those Queens lately, your guardian circle of feminine energy will help you find your way. It is you time of year. Brene Brown really cuts to the heart of things. I really enjoy reading her books.

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    1. I love the image of a guardian circle. For me this is is the first book of her I am reading and it is truly amazing

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  6. Which queen do you most identify with? Is HRH wands the queen of artists? You post reminds me of the presence of an absence. I don't think I've ever drawn Queen Cups which is strange because she is probably the one that is least like me.

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    1. I am more a Queen of Swords and Cups. I think when you are like HRH Wands creating will come more naturally. Often I have to overcome my inner critic and feelings of insecurity. The presence of an absence: beautifully said !!
      I almost never draw the Queen of Cups either :D

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  7. The images make me think of nurturing your inner flame tenderly and carefully, rather than exposing it to others. Maybe that's something I need to do right now... :)

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    1. Yes those two hands have a very protective vibe!
      Let's mother our little inner spark for the rest of the week ☺

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