My card for today is the King of Swords from the Original Rider Waite Tarot. It is not the first time this week the King of Swords is passing by. But today I finally understood why it is he is paying me a visit so frequently.
Lately there are so many things on my mind; so many choices to be
made. And don’t fret, nothing life threatening or life changing is going on, it
is just me and my constant need for control who wants to organize and structure
her life. Questions like: what journal do I use, do I type or write by hand? Do
I paint in my small art journal or in my larger one? Do I meditate in the morning
or in the evening etc etc etc. All those questions prevent me from doing
something.
So I pulled another card and I got the three of wands. Oh what a wonderful
solution. Standing on a hill top watching the ships go by. For now he has nothing
to do, the choices he has made in the Two of Wands are the right ones. Being confident
about the decisions he has made is paying off. Maybe the ships are sailing to
far away countries or maybe they are returning to the harbor, but either way there
is movement in this card which is lacking in the depiction of the King of
Swords. So movement, flexibility in thinking
and deciding is what I will focus on today. Nothing what I will decide today
will be set in stone forever. So letting go of the need to structure (control)my life will give me a sense of ease and a freedom to listen to the whispering of my intuition telling what
is good for me right now!
Tell that King to take some deep breaths. :D I understand the feverish "I need to do this the RIGHT way" kind of thinking you're talking about. Like you said, it is the one thing that keeps me stuck more than anything else. But it's not a life or death choice, and whatever decision we make can easily be changed in most cases. So pick from a hat then test out what works best for you, rather about worrying if it is right or not. :)
ReplyDeleteYou're so right Bev! I tend to overthink these kind of minor decisions to have an excuse for my procrastinating behavior. The worrying is my way to escape facing my fears :D
DeleteIt's so often a comfort to come home to the truth of mutability where decisions are concerned :)
ReplyDeleteYes it is! You can always change your mind :D
DeleteLetting go of the tangible, loosening the grip on the reigns, is often where the most creative energy can creep in. (Not that it's always so easy to do!!!) I wish you well as you work through these decisions you are facing! Many hugs your way <3
ReplyDeleteThanks Olivia. letting go of the reigns, of control will always be something I have to be mindful of. Being in control is one of the major illusions I have about life :D
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It's funny, it's like when you try to control too much, decide too much, you end up not deciding anything at all. Reminds me of a phrase I used to have hanging on my wall: I used to be indecisive, but now I'm not so sure.
ReplyDeleteOf late, I think I sometimes err in the opposite direction - choose anything, just choose. But as you say, no decision is final, so maybe that's okay :)
Choosing nothing at all is also a choice. I think living in a world built on duality we always have to chose because there is a no and a yes for everything. I went shopping for groceries this morning and even though I had a shopping list, some many times I had to say no to delicious food which wasn't on my list :D
DeleteIt's very true, every yes means a no and vice versa. We just kid ourselves that not saying yes to something doesn't mean we've said no - or at least a "not yet" :D
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